70% sane 30% insane

final term in sp

2011-01-18T13:26:00.004+08:00

I am coming to the end of my poly days.
I came in as a guy who was just so sheltered from the real world
I leave as a man who knows who to trust and who not to

got to differentiate the genuine friendship from the fake one
Suddenly i got the urge to take good pics
not as a prefessional but as a hobby
i dont own a dslr and i dont intend to buy one either
i am just going to use my gf's G12 and my fujifilm

The best shot i have taken so Far

i like the colour combo
This pic should be titled- Life.

just randomn pics, trying out the functions in G12

i like this one, was taken by my gf

i remember taking this one, but gf insisted she took it
co the copyrights goes to her

Monday Not So Blue

2010-11-08T13:09:00.002+08:00

You know, people dread coming to school on mondays
but to be honest i dont!
i love coming to school, becuase its like a new world for me
i wish i can continue be in a school full of friends n anonymous characters!

well yeah, kinda dissappointed that i dint get to go to KL.
yea, been in spore for about 11 odd years.
MET all type of people.
made friends, lost some
but yet, everyone have their own life, own family, own relatives

so whenever i see my friends get together with their cousins and uncles and have fun
i feel that i miss something
that is my relatives
they are very poor and not so well to do

but i have fond memories of having fun with them , every time i go back n visit them
after all they are my relatives

you ca go to your friends house n be with their cousins, they might treat like u r one of them

but deep down you know that they are not your relatives and you dont feel so close to them

i am not saying mine are better or whatso ever
but i just want to be with my family,( i dont feel like an outsider)

one thing i have learnt being in spore
that family unity is very important for one's happy life

theres a saying girls come and go
but a friend stays

well for me , girls came n they went, but one is staying with me
friends are the one who comes and goes

well maybe my attitude sucks, the way i speak and express myself sucks
thats why i dont have much friends
and I AM NOT worried about it,
because i know i have helped those friends have a good life now

no no , this is not an emo crap shit

just somethings that everyone feels
Family is Important

2/11

2010-11-02T00:07:00.002+08:00

some times the best isnt enough
mentally its exhausting

final sem, final year in my tetiary education

some important decision awaits

My ITP

2010-03-24T19:57:00.006+08:00

Hi there everyone. i am not dead neither is my blog. LOL Its been very very very very long since my "lover-boy" kanesh wants to come up All this while i have been a "uncle " kanesh which gave me more misery and unrest than happiness and success. Well, everyone have their very own alter ego. but i have too many to be considered normal. LOL . no i am not insane or whatever. i would like consider myself special hahaks , yea.

past few Months have been very eventful for me, somethings were stupid , somethings were awesome and some were work of miracle.. Stupid-est part was when i kept in touch with some shit-ass person. Which was stupid. But my GF forgave me n we have put things to rest and we have moved on stronger than ever All i can say is, i am a much more positive person than i was ever since i entered poly. after Giving up on Jc, it affected my confidence BIG time, i always like to be the top person in everything n anything i do. so by quitting poly it was like cutting my own balls n throwing it away to the dog. HAHA, u get the point? anyways, things got better and better for me and my gf she has so called settled down with her job, and gg to do a degree which means she gg to be degree graduate by the time i end my ns ITP have been great so far, for the first three weeks i have been getting As, which is great because i need all the As i can get to improve my overall GPA, during itp i have learnt whats the use of certain modules i learn in poly, i really cant understand anything or any subject when i dont see the whole equation, u get what mean? like i must know why two sweets must be divided by four kids .. like for example so tt they all get to taste the sweet.

yea, so my itp have been great as the things i am doing there, they just need to point the things to me n i will get it done<> Because i have all the knowledge( which is all jumbled up), n i need to e shown the solution for me to equate it i never so good abt myself before! and its a damn good i tell you! haha, when something great happens there is a price to pay, and for me its time, yea, practically i have no time no time to even clean my room! its in a huge mess, maybe coming next friday when i am having my public holiday i shall clean up my mess and come back home to nice tidy clean room. i hate being untidy and in a mess. i like things to be neatly arranged and planned out well, if not i will just get so upset and confused.

and i was thinking of getting a car ever since i got my license, but i am just putting a hold for that as i NEED to think carefully and cant blindly take one, coz once i have it its gg to be my full responsible i wouldnt have my father or mother to rely on to pay for me, so for now, the topic is closed, all i ever want to say is i really love my gf and no matter what happens whe still rocks my life both in a good n bad way BUT mostly good!

i would like to dedicate this pic for my gf!

LOVE = PaviTra

fed up!

2010-01-29T00:27:00.002+08:00

its FREAKING 12.28 AM and i cant sleep!
all because i am damn pissed. seriously.
i got so much of frustrations in me that i only know one way to channel it out

BY RUNNING ON MY TREADMILL

please understand that.
really i got so much of it in me tt i need to run it off

like seriuosly for each person who says i have lost a little weight
i have another one saying i m fat
yeah i know i m still fat
but when they just gimme remarks abt my weight

i feel like killing them
i went for my alumni meeting and the moment i enter
a fucking stupid shit ass said "buncit besar sia!"
meaning i got a biigggggg tummy

i was like wtf?!
seriously i would humiliated that a-hole big time la
but i just covered it up by taking it like a joke

other than that i think i can reach my 36 inch waist by the end of feb!
seriously
i am controlling my temptations like super much la.
except on weekends i just help myself with the food around me!
i must stop that and also work out on weekends!

well my brothers' team have resumed their friendlies
soccer!
i mean i know i dnt have time and all
and i m not gg for my sun games
so i thought fri game day would be fantastic!
so i hope i can join the league and play every fridays!

abt the alumni the only reason i joined is so that i feel important and not lost
i still have my wacky classmates beside me
i feel like i m at home whenevr we have a meeting
i just wish that some really unwanted ppl can leave and mind their own biz la k

anw. gf gf gf gf gf gf gf gf
she is like a sweet n sour chicken
seriously i just love that woman alot
she really sometimes suck la.
i mean the way she outs her pont across to me ahhhhh
i tell u .

but she does the nicest things in the world for me la.
recently nothing la!
but as usual she complain la
abt me meeting her only on weekends
bt a few mths ago i used to meet her 2wice a mth!
but haiya gf.

understandable la.

haha

anws. exam is coming in 3 weeks time!
so yea. be prepared!!!!!!!!!

mght not be perfect
but i m nt a sucky person......i hope

bbye bye!

gf

2010-01-25T12:25:00.002+08:00

its beeeeeeeennnn such a long long long long long time since i blogged.
2009 was full of ups and downs
but more of downs la
gpa dropped like dont know what. bloody 2.7!
hw to go uni or even get a good diploma?
but 2010 gave me 2As . hopefully it will pull up to 3.4 if can ah.

we are reaching our 3rd year of our relationship.
and its quite funny how ppl claim that they were responsible for the growth of this r/s
its been a hate-love according to my gf.

but i find it normal la.
i mean how may r/s out there is so smooth and perfect?????
even brad and angelina are breaking up

what i am trying to say its normal and nothing to worry about
but even after two years if we still so unsure
we have to relax. seriuosly relax
i am happy about the r/s

yes i might have made the most dumbest shit in the entire universe
at least i learnt my lesson n nt anymore.
must appreciate that, yes u do n i know u do

but just dont tension la
chillax

anyways
this year is my 21st birthday
hopefully i would be able to wear size 34 by may
now i m 38!

lol

anyhows.

i will be updating my blog more regularly from today cheers!

immatured baskets

2009-11-11T21:45:00.003+08:00

WOW beeeen so long since i blogged la it had to be today the day where all my tuition have ended the day where i finally can get my priorites right! the day i sweated so much!!!!! i have been thinking and reflecting how bad i look i always thought that i can lose weight in a matter of weeks but after seeing an old pic of myself(when i was in pJc) it came as a bloody big blow.

i was so bloody thin though the pic had an awfull angle i realised how fat n irresponsible i have become those were the days where mr kwok would sreaming across the fiels to ask me to run and dont let my team down those where the time when lock n derrick would push and encourage me to get to my limit though my time in pjc rugby was cutshort as i was given the boot by the school and not backed by the coach i got upset,angry and disappointed i have never told anyone about this before i really wanted to play rugby and be someone even if i had to repeat i wouldnt mind but when the comments made by jc teachers were read out it felt like huge pain at my back. they were there and made me feel its alright to clown around they made feel its alright but all of them said i showed no bloody fucking right attitude towards studies.
it took me 2 years or so to get over it. now its behind me. i have stopped letting myself down i am on my own i love soccer love the amplititude of rugby but i lack in physique and stamina my studies were taken by a storm of my own poor attitude this semestes i swear it will hit 3.7 at least dist for maths and three As and maybe a B? i need to set the record straight i need my mojo back i went for a run just now(after so long) it felt great i am going to continue running and maybe take part in a marathon next year! i have to thank my new good friends to make me feel good abt myself and that i can make it shahir and danial might not be my kind of buddies but they are great as friends so far to me! thanks guys! Gf been awesome lately though we quarrel almost everyday i cant seem to stop loving her so much yes, she gets on my nerve with her sacarsm and attitude i even told her i feel like choking her haha!
but i guess its because both of us really need to spend some good time together its been very long since i went out on a date with her i plan to go out to orchard road soon with her for that i need to look good to feel good i must be able to wear my size 36 jeans after which by march wear size 32 and get the bloody awesome 501 cut levis!!!!! till then .... baby i really love you alot thanks for being patient and taking all the crap i gave u yes i agree i can be an arse at times but its all lovesu la! lol

stressed up

2009-08-15T00:36:00.004+08:00

school been a real burden
health was bad this term yet again

this term is about to end soon!
three more weeks only and sem1 of year 2 is over
what a semester
i think this the only semester i never knew what was happening

project seem never ending for me
server management gave tons of bullshit to be completed
some more i am doing it for the second time
i am mentally exhausted
literally its draining out every inch of my confidence

com net i am doing it with a china boy, bloody hell no communication and his friends are doing it for him
so again i have to do two persons job. does anyone understand my prob??
no!

all ppl know i am keeping everything to myself and i got a lot of time to do so many things!
but the fact is i am so stressed up i go blank all the time(end up sitting in front of the tv)
i have no where and no one to talk to about these
really need someone to talk to and tell its ok n urge n encourage me

i am really in a depresssed mode. but no one can see that or realise that.
no one can see that i am sad and throwing my tantrums here and there
feel so lonely i swear to god i do

i am playing soccer tomorrow
i know i cant last long tomorrow
no exercise and flu and cough
argh, i got too much of things in me i need a venue to vent it out
so soccer shall be tomorrow

after which another two weeks of hard studies and then i can have free of mind
haha..so long sincei write things out

well boxing is still there. i really want to join it and get fit again.
get fit and be happy about myself again.
really
this is the last holiday that i can work out. i must do it.

well yea thats all now...

miss my gf alot. i am being so selfish i know. and i am making her sad all the times now.
ii just hope that i dont fight n she wll calm down a little bit and listen to what i got to say
and for once show me that u trust me. i love you alot .really i do. just have to understand the state i am in now. sorry i have been a bad bf

box in g

2009-08-01T01:37:00.002+08:00

okayy its been gazillion years since i last wrote an entry!
its been so long since i feel myself happy n rocking

tho i loved rugby n the workout
it was bringing my hype down
like i gt no aim n all

so yea!
I QUIT RUGBY

and guess whats next on the list
BOXING.
i going to join fightworksasia.com
hopefully i enjoy it n stick it longer

still in soccer playing for a damn team called BHFC
lost all the matches so far
the team has no soccer mindset
but i still join them to get that ball n runout

so yea..

school lab n project are kicking in
scared(very very very very) scared for myfinal examination
coz got no study break sia
omg!

STRESS STRESS

haha3

2009-05-30T12:07:00.002+08:00

got left out in m10 compt. guess my rugby techniques nt there so guess what
i am going to join a club
which i can always play and learn more
i am thinking of joining northern knight
trainings is at ccab on weekdays and west coast on saturday aftnoons(runs!)
i think its time i listen to what i want and do it my way
though i should not listen to myself myself on studies(as i m getting slacke-er)
i should listen to myself coz i want to play first team so badly

i sound pathetic?
well watever!
i am going to join a club do my own runs and be the perfect strong prop.
i many not be the best within few weeks
but by pol-ite i think i will be fair enuf to last full game
by next time should be force to be wreckoned with!

lab test next week
kind of confident for com net n nvst
but server management kind of bit worried la
so many protocals so many com lang
gg to burst out day and become some com geeek!

was watching benchwarmers just now
something bout the movie made me realise i was a geek myself back then till p5
ah
life...............

i m outta here back to my programming!!!!!(however it shud be spelt!)

m1 out

2009-05-26T10:26:00.002+08:00

yea..been long that i never blog
guess i need to blog more often to be more calm and relaxed

and yea i did not make it to upcoming m1 10s compt
one part i m happy that i do not have to skip my tuition lessons
another part is that i sacrificed so much time training and talking about this
i dont know why i cant be able to perform well in the training or in match
its my bloody stamina
yes i m fat like beyond imaginmation
all my previous post was bout how i gg to lose weight n be the top and shit

guess i just need to take things on my own n do it for myself and
not to prove others wrong
i mean i always find things that i m better than them to make myself feel good
and not improve myself!

what the hell
i sound so pathetically emo-ish
well im not

i am just bloodily frustrated with myself
seeing pjc winning the plates and see them so happy with mr kwok
you know the sense of accomplishment(spelling wrong i guess)
in a sports game as team or group of players representing school or nation

sometimes when on the field i dont get my basics right or when i m just simply not in the game mentally
i feel i should not have let go of my soccer
like i know in out of soccer)used to)
made strikers think twice
whaah

now that in poly you cant find people who you just appreciate
miss my sec sch days where they dint back stab me or look down but always given the encouragement to succeed
here some indians i just............

fuck i sound so retard!
lol
anyways going to go for my training(intensive and i swear i will)
i hope to become out center after losing much weight
if not at least a first spot in prop
as i can see that some people dont have the stamina to last the whole game
i should take things into my hand

going to end my 19 years of life today(2mrow my bdae)
i going to start my 20th year in a more much more positive and enlighting way
my dream to sustain 3.65 at the end of poly still continues

i have to be 3.65 pointer and a well known good rugby player
lab test next week
got to prepare for that and after which prepare for my rugby
lets say i aim to loose 10kg over the three weeks?
possible?
lets see!

being out with my gf nowadays seems so fun and happy as we can never get enough of each other
we dont meet up regularly like used to
and when we meet up now
we dont usually quarell
except when the mutton whack-er wants to annoy me on purpose!
still love so dearly

26th may 2009
i skipped two lectures and at home n i never inform my gf as i m a gd bf and letting her sleep!
:D

2009-05-14T09:40:00.004+08:00

finally i can upload the pics that i took with my gf when we were waiting at ecp for shan tim n nic!

back to sp

2009-04-21T10:22:00.002+08:00

Its year two
day two
computer engineering
hacking networking creating soft ware
but what interests me most?
MATHS

haha. i have to ace it i really want to be in job line teaching maths
but yes my aim of being an army officer still alive but fading day by day
how can i be a bloody officer if i am a PR.
hope my dad applies for the citizenship asap

rugby
rugby oh rugby
i really dont understand why some ppl have to look down on themselves
and have low aim
maybe i am ambitious but whats wrong being ambitious?
it just makes u outperform beyond your normality
i hope by beating pjc in our frendlies coming up ahead in may will instill some confidence in the team

love life as usual is alright
ups and lows as usual
but all is fine
lots of fun happened during the hols
from bowling to food places

haha
school is back so shall my blogging

fatties and blackies

2009-02-11T10:24:00.002+08:00

what have i done to myself?
i let other uglier people to make fun of me
gosh this not suppose to happen
fucking irritants

nvm
let my exams finish
and after that i will start running 10rounds in the morning
10 rounds in the night(for the first week)
second week onwards it will be 20 rounds in the morning
20 rounds in the evening

fucking fuglies!

and after i loose weight(which i will)
i am going to show off to those fuglies

been falling often ever since my operation
my 25% for maths has not been granted
stupid singapore poly school of EEE system!

i just want to enter my year two with a 3+ gpa!

I Thank god that i got a lovely gf
maybe sometimes we fight and we might think we dont really deserve each other
but at the end of the day
we realize we are for on another
stupid past might haunt each other
asking either one of us to leave one another

but hey u all were given more than enough time
so too bad
just buzz off
and if u reading this
here is a big MIDDLE FINGER!
ok
thats all for now

well going for school now
still got my pbil and other revision to do!
good god
please be with me
and let me score!
like how i scored 97 for my lab!

kanesh signing off!

sem

2009-02-04T10:24:00.003+08:00

back to mugging mode....
aiyah...
times not been good recently la

its like i cant study one day happily...
some stuff just have to happen
i dont know.
sometimes its so stupid la
but sometimes just cant help it la

see how it goes la.....
aiyah...

i just want to conc on my studies,
and when i feel like doing something else
i wanna do
so be supportive if can
if not
dont bother....

of coz i m sad
but i cant let that affect my revision now.

gtg bye

my gf n i

2009-01-26T00:31:00.004+08:00

Finally i blog!
haha......
yea been off from blogging for some time
well what else am i going to talk about?
either my self my lovely gf or my studies or my sports.
well for now its about my gf!
semestral exam is in just 3 weeks time!!!!!
need to get my lazy ass off the bed and sofa and study!
well of coz
due to the laziness i got fat

and all the other slim yet ugly guys who think they are hot stuff jus bcoz they lost weight
are like picking on me
but what the hell
lemme just get over my exams and start my exercising
bcoz for what i know
if i just continuosly exercise for 2 months i will loose the 10 kg!
haha
yea it was proven too often many times to me
so yea
and to those slim yet ugly black or fucked up dudes
FUCK OFF

my girlfriend and i went out like after sooooooooo
long

and we went to sungei buloh after our bfast together
aiyaaaaaaahhhh so nice ok
if only i get to speng more quality time with her everytime
i m sure my love dont mind that
hehe

but wth
she is busy today
no calls at all
and no proper sms also
aiyahhhhh
sad ok

i need to sleep early
wake up early tomorrow
and go straight to studies!

here are the pics i took
just for the record
BABY I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!

both of us did really enjoy our date together

the pic says it all!

i dont know why

my gf loves this pic!

step la kanesh!

overdose of love between us make me look like a drunkard!

the end of our date

i will always love her till my last breathe

nothing can seperate us!

and i m confident of it

and dear please think over of what i ask for

kaneshwaran

signing off at 12.51pm

26 jan 2009

2008-11-16T01:17:00.003+08:00

Meaning of friends for me:

a person who understands you
a person whom you can fight
a person whom you can forgive
a person you can count on
a person you respect
a person who respects you

ok
i am just happy i have got friends who knows kanesh
who care
who knows my attitude

i mean my sec sch friends
look at them
6 years of friendship

we fight and we advise and we do all sorts of things

mainly they will be therewhen you need them

dian,hazimah,gayathri,roseanne,khair.fizz,afiq,fathur,hamesh,rajen

shan,shafiq,navein,nicholias,PaviG

these are the persons whom i bitch and get bitched by
but yea
though i am sometimes mean and rude
friendship means alot
be it a minor or major
any friendship broken
it hurts ls

wateva la
chaozzz

2008-11-13T09:06:00.001+08:00

I need chicken essence!!!!

i cant afford to skip lessons or sleep in class

i need that disgusting thing!

my life

2008-11-03T16:00:00.004+08:00

helllloooooo
i feel so much full of life now
haha
yea
my holiday ended
6 weeks of term holiday
but it just happened so that i had to have appendices operation on the first week of school

yea so was admitted and yeap
got operated
and my lovely gf was there almost all the time
with my bro shan
i was so weak that shan had to like support me or carry me when i need to walk to toilet
and pavitra like have to wet my lips as they were dry and were like peeling

timothy shafiq were also there
thank goodness for them
they came
it meant alot to me

other than that
i have been eating and sleeping
and the doc said that i should not exercise even a bit
i feel like a tub of lard walking around with my xl shirt and size 38 pants

i used to walk around with size M and size 34 pants
aiyah

but one thing i can look forward to
after appendix thingy is gone
i can run without pain
haha
but the worst scenario is me pushing myself too much and die of a heart attack
lol
but yeah
i guess in the month of december i would be able to loose weight very fast
damn

i love my gf too much
she means the world to me now
i want her very badly
she loves me tooo

hols

2008-10-12T15:18:00.000+08:00

anyways hello world
i had my holiday sleep at last!
i woke up at 1pm after such a long time!!!!!!!
wohoooooooo

yea
6 weeks holiday coming to an end
haizzz
but i am proud of my self
i earned about 4k plus during the hols
haha

if only i was bit carefull with the way i spend my money
i would have saved some money. i mean i did managed to save 1k
but you know i could have saved another 1 k
haiya
nvm learned my lesson
well my aim is to save 10 k before i enter the ns
i would finally have some cusion if i ever "fall"
and i would be proud of myself
my own hardwork

my own savings
not a single cent from my parents
how?
haha
coool huh
yeahh

applying for car license soon
i just have to think about things so much yeah
i am calling here and there to find out about the pros and cons
and etc
haizzz

so lonnng

2008-10-12T14:12:00.004+08:00

My girlfriend birthday!!!!
wohooooooooo
my master planning
thankyou shan for your help

i am a proud proud proud man
i made my gf birthday wonderfull
she had always complained about how her birthdays were boring

and she has nothing to look forward to and yeah
so i had to abolish that mindset of hers
so i sketch out a plan
i decided to make her feel sucky at the beginning of the day
i just irritated her

went to vivo and i treated her for a GOLD CLASS ticket movie
"mamma mia"
then we went to the bungy thingy
omg i almost died okay
and she was one lunatic up there with me "happy birthday kanesh"
and i swear i wanted to kill her

haha
but yeah i never opened my eye all the way as i have fear of height
so yea the night mare ended la

then shan smsed me that he will be late!
sam was there first
jac n pras were on the way
so i dint know what to do

so i just said i want to go and drink
and she was like ok
so yea
i ordered the mai tai
nice la that one
but before that

we were walking past the hooters club
you know the one showing their ass and walking around
from far i was like ooooo
when i came near them i was like eeeeeeeeeeeee
philipine and china

aiyoh!!!!

and my lovely gf highlighted all the auncles whom are drinking there
so yea back to the drink part
i just took my own time to drink in order to kill the time
and yea the girls were all there and shan was only at dhobby gaut
so i deciede to walk to raffles hotel from clarke quay
i tell you

DONT TRUST GIRLS WITH THEIR DIRECTIONS
my gf just brought me around the whole clarke quay la
and shan called me and said they were all there and i decided to cab there
we reached raffles hotel in like 10 mins and the cabby was bragging about the erp and cbd la
after we arrived at raffles hotel

the surprise
i just post some pics okay
a pic tells a thousand words

HER FRIENDS WHOM SHE NEVR MEET FOR 9877692092877365 years

samantha, my gf,jacintha,prashanti

ME AND MY PAVITRA WITH THE BOUQUET I GOT FOR HER

16 CHAMPAGNE ROSES AND 3 SUN FLOWERS

HER BIRTHDAY CAKE

CHOCOLATE FUDGE

RAFFLES HOTEL ONLY MAKES THE BEST CAKES IN SINGAPORE

THE COCOLATE WAS TOO HEAVY BUT STILL AWESOME

PSP SLIM

A GIFT FROM ME TO HER

HER EXPRESSION SAYS IT ALL

A HUGE HUG FROM HER TO ME

I LOVE YOU TOO BABY

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY LOVE

FROM LEFT: prashanti and jacintha(A.S.S buddies),samantha(very close fren),pavitra(love),kanesh(me la),shan(my buddy)

you know i love you more than anything dear

friends

2008-10-03T22:11:00.003+08:00

i am happy with the way i am
ok it would be better if i loose some weight
other than that i am happy with the way i M

i dont end up with stupid people as my friends
almost all my friend
i am quite clever with the people i choose to be friends with
not snobbish
they dont control who i have as friends
they dont control my life
they encourage me to go out with my girlfriend and will join us
and will be happy
and also i have friends who are NOT living in their lala land

who are awesome
who dont backstab me
they are simply normal and not weird
haha
anyways friends like
shan nicholias dian khair are gems la please

kids

2008-09-23T03:32:00.003+08:00

i told my friend shan you dont have to be nice to all the people in the world
he did not heed my advice
and he just let some worthless people to grind things on his head

he is my bro
so i have to clear the mess he is in
i mean a girl of 18 year old being controlled by two guys over what kind of friends she chooses?

i mean puhlease la
and poly people are not cultured? not decent?
i mean i dont see cultured or decent people posting some REALLY indecent pics of a FRIEND
and they wont pick on someone who was merely being a normal friend
if you all are jealous say so la

need not got to the extent till want to threaten him
i mean how much can i guy tolerate?
so my fren seeked advise from his friend to escape from this trash
and some two clowns interfered and blew the whole issue out of proportion

and there they went
crying like a little babies
ohh you aint decent
you aint cultured
jc people are high class
poly people are pariahs

hello day dreamer
u do not know any shit about poly life so just shut ur crack
at least i came from jc
and now in poly

hah
poly people are wayyyy better than those high ego self centered sophispicated
creatures of jc
in poly u learn to be mature and understand and accept the REALITY of the world!
I MEAN I PITY THOSE PEOPLE WHO THINK POLY DUDES ARE WORTHLESS

if u aint doing biomedical in the uni whom u claim to have invited you
then the other faculty in the uni sucks
tht uni is not in the top 20 uni in the world honey except for biomed
sorry if i shatter your dreams okay?

i tell you
some people could not just be normal
and they have to wake up from their la la land

anways
its all over now
hopefully

got relieve teaching tomorrow need to go get some sleep
oh yea
the opposite of little is big
just in case some kiddo is reading this entry

kanesh
peace out hommies

my gf

2008-09-11T07:56:00.002+08:00

HELLLOOOO SINGAPORE

i am awake now at 8.00am!!!
wohooo

anyways
as i was reading through my gf blog
i needed clear my name

i did not wash my chicken with soap
the soap just accidently went in
but i washed them again and again till no soap
the chicken bled because it was not cooked properly
dont know how to fry a chicken gf took out chicken fast
i told her that the chicken must be medium fried
but w/o using the sense of cookingness
n just took it out

all this would not have happened if she could just keep quiet and not condemn me from the beginning!

i am just very sad now
and disappointed
i have no mood
i am worried for him
eventhough i beat him and scold him
he is still my blood
we love each other
my heart just stopped when these things are happening to him
i just wish that this is all a dream that he can wake up from!

shan has been very supportive
not forgetting my gf and her good fren pamela
thank you guys!

life been okay
giving tuition!
loving it
collection week now
been collecting my fees now
and i am damn happy la now!
haha
should have been a tutor from last time
and not work as a waiter at a damned place!!!

MY pavitra is love
lanesh

happy2

2008-08-29T21:50:00.003+08:00

FINALLY EXAMS OVER

for me

but FOR others
its just the beginning
my students have got their end of year and o level ]exams coming soon

and i think they would do just fine
because i clear any doubt nad they learn quite fast
i am happy for them
i feel so much better
when they say "teacher that day u teach me right , my exam gt come out u know, and i got correct arh!"

haha
now i know how my teachers feel whenever i do well and whenever i dont
being a teacher is way better than being mid wife
hah
seriously
but i wont be doing this job in future

i am training mysef to join the air force or the police force
and of coz to be successfull and rich enuf to make there only one sole breadwinner of my OWN family
tc

cheers kiddos

kanesh

whut

2008-08-29T21:43:00.002+08:00

i have never said or felt that my gf is bad
i have always loved her so much
and frm the starting of this relationship to now

My love for her has been always increasing in a increasing rate
yes, i dont know how to be sweet
being sweet or soft i see it as foolish
nt egoistic
i just feel that when u dont hurt anyone and make them happy
isnt it good enough?

and yes i hate to talk about the past
why dwell on the past when u got SO MUCH things to look forward?
fair enuf?
i dnt knw
for me
i think its a total waste of time and energy dwelling about the past

n please
now i am afraid
like seriously
i have never ever so far felt that this relationship wont work out
but if u gg to feel that way
i m just speechless

you want me to say things like please and want me to be something i never use to do

let go of your stubborness for me
fair?

darn

2008-08-27T22:19:00.003+08:00

i am sick of going through in circles again and again

spare me from nonsense
spare me from bullshit
spare me from sarcasm
spare me from plastic
spare me from stress
spare me from pressure
spare me from solitude

i want my life to be happy
get what i want
everything to go my way
its time to put my words into action

evveryone should have a aim and work towards it
no aim
its like a blind finding his way out of a maze

so complicated!

feeling unappreciated
to the max

gt nothing else to say

pavig love of my life

2008-08-24T21:18:00.002+08:00

i need to blog about this special person

because i have not talked about her for quite sometime
she is such a diamond
most of the people thought i was just playing about her because
she was there for me when i was at a very low point of my life

and even she herself thought like that
i still remember what she was saying bout me being her bf..
nic was talking to her bout me
i dont think so he wud be my bf
i m nt saying he is a bad guy
but he just cant be my bf

honey what am i now?
lol

anws back to what i was saying bout her
i and her are so meant for each other
we talk COCK all the time
we are most of time happy together
but when we miss each other
we tend to show it by having a little amount of anger at each other

i am just so lucky la please
i love her with every inch of my heart
and for those loosers who thought i was just using my gf to
patch back with my ex
dream on yea?

made mistake 2wice
n i m sure i wont make mistake for the 3rd time
i want her
i want her real bad
i love her with all of my soul

i will conc on my studies as well
and get my landed property too
i want to have a happy life with her

cheers ppl
kanesh
madly in love

happy yet disspt

2008-08-22T09:25:00.005+08:00

exam weeeeek!!!

walllao
i wish i had some tuition when i was taking my Os
it would have made whole lot of difference
with tuition i got an A2 foe my emaths
from a bloody f9 i got at mid years

just imagine
if i had the means
toook a tuition for my science esp physics
i would have gotten my 5 A1s
haiyah
but past is past
i regret but that doesnt hold me back NOW
i mean elo o
past is past
its done and over
screw it

what does it have to do with future
maybe i just got enuf guts
to face the future and not be taken aback

i thank my mum for bringing me up
i think i got much more responsibility and better attitude
than many others

though my mum can really be
at times a terrible person
i cant blame her
maybe at the point of time i would be cursing
and swearing at mum in me
but i dont really mean it

and i hate people who got impression that my mum is some sort of evil person
u dont knw that person so just shut up la please

talked to shawn
he said he missed my mums tomyam!!!!
haha
shan and nicholias also

haizzzzzz

anws
exam time can be real tiring
i have always told myself that i need to revise everyday
but i would always failed to do so
and now everything is last min
haiya!

next time i must get my priorities right la please
i am happy i got few close and true friends
ppl i can turn to and trust them with my secrets
ppl like shan,nic and shawn esp

shan can be a very good fren to the whole world
everyone can be shans friend
coz he is a good and sensitive person

kanesh can also be a very fren to everyone
when he has money to spend on them
get it?

cause i speak my mind whether they like it or not

and guess what
shan and me are brothers
unlikely pair of frens?
well yes we r

ahaha
he will ask for advise from ME
i will ask from HIM
he will clear my doubts
and abolish some of my freak mindset
hah
he is such gem

anws i will stop being gay
lol

yes i am kanesh
yes i have a very old mindset
women r suppose to stay at home and take care of the kids
while the husband find goes to work
i hate the trend where the couple have to go work
i mean like elo-o
the children???

for me i dont want my children to be growing up in their gandparents home or even a maid have to bring them up
no o
that destroys the bond with child from the beginning
scold me and say all u want
this is what i want my life to be when its my time to have a family
to be working father
have housewife
and happy kids growing up under the love of their mother!

i thank god that i dint get "laid back" because of my failed relationships
first was 2 years of rs( broke up!)
2nd one was a fling
3rd one cheated me

i would say the 3rd one hurt me the most among alll
and yes it did took a toll on my life
it went down the drain
it made me realise that there is a low point in a life

but heck
thanks to my mum and my friends
i got over the a hole
and yes
my life is way better now!
and yes i dnt let that affct my current rs

there is a voice at the back of my head
girls are always plastic about their FEELINGS
huh
but i know it would be unfair to my current gf
so yes i do love her alot
and i trust her
i dont want this relationship to suffer bcoz of the PAST
cause its very very very very ubber UNFAIR to the partner

and shawn many have said u r just a bad influence
many ppl can say this and that about u
even i sometimes had some harsh words against you
but bro
u would always be my brother
and shan u tooo

my right and my left eye

my gf is my heart
and i m my own brain

everyone happy now???

lol

tc
kanesh
peace out!

killabeez sucked

2008-08-17T21:59:00.003+08:00

k

i am sick of this .
like seriously!

dhool 2008

whats wrong with singaporeans( ok viewers)
this is a dance compt
not some popularity thingy

i am not saying that i have something against them
like really
their outfit does not match with the song
and wats with the entrance?
guys

u should know that u are THE GROUP everyone wanted to see
because u guys are so talked about how good u guys dance( except those goondu gals who talks bout how they are n stuff)
a couple of my friends wanted to see
what so good about them

and then thay perform
ahem ahem
they did something la k
dance step were there
chereo bit out
energy level was high
but given to the expectation
u guys like totally failed to impress
LIKE SERIOUSLY

apsara was next
and i was like
they are just gg to be another 4 dee crew dancers or something like that
and the song went
retro
omg!!!!!
that was the best dance i have ever seen sia!!!
they kickass!!!
they rocked
and i can continue and continue talking about them
they were just extarordinary

and then there was boredrz
i was like
ok next
and we had aerocratz
they were
second to asparz

omg the judge decision would surely be
asparaz and aerocratz!!!!

but guess who qualified?
killabeez!!! and aerocratz(they deserve IT)

aiyah
so much for being a DANCE compt!!!!
hmph!!!!!!!!!

tv or hp

2008-08-15T10:16:00.000+08:00

Wife is like TV, girlfriend is like Handphone (HP)At home watch TV, go out bring HP.No money, sell TV.
Got money change HP.

Sometimes enjoy TV, but most of the time play with HP.

TV free for life but HP, if you don't pay the services willbe terminated.

TV is big, bulky and most of the time old, buthandphone is cute, slim, curvy and very portable

at anytime.

Operational cost for TV is often acceptable but for HPis high and often demanding.

Mos t Important, TV got remote..

HP don't have..
Last but not least.TV do not have virus, but HP yes..........have VIRUS..............so better choose TV

got it from tivens blog

hah!!!!

feeling lonely

2008-08-09T22:25:00.002+08:00

you know

when it seems like u have everything u need
u would still feel some emptiness
an emptiness we cant explain in words

a loneliness we cant prevent
you will feel like u want the whole worlds attention turned towards you
well i do
haha

hell yea
i want to be in newspapers
i want to be in tv
in t shirts
on your cornflakes box

superstardom
i yearn for

u know
sometimes money talks passion walks
its true now
wats my passion?
acting and football.

but i have to use my time and effort on trainings and auditions
and put up with the very demeaning smirk ppl give
i put on the brakes to pursue my passion for money

i work at raffles hotel
outside at the courtyard
working 12 hours on weekends

now i m a tuition teacher at a tuition centre
a well sheltered place with suitable working environment
teaching others
u get your respect
i can hear them saying
good Evening Mr kanesh
lol

my passion?
haizzz
for now
its under some box

kanesh
i m still a happy person at the end of the day

wow

2008-08-09T11:50:00.002+08:00

WOW

i knew it
if i am going to blog about something that is gg to b sensitive
i m sure to have some "passer-by" to tagg me

haha..
#1 i am not saying i dont accept my fren who is gay or lesbian
#2 i did not say that i dont respect their "gay" feelings
#3 this post is for those posers who says they are gay so that they can be "cool"
#4 asking those people not to give into their problems and turn out to be "gay" because its a sign of cowardness towards life
#5 and even if they want to be gay dont flaunt it to those straight people

last but not least this post has nothing to do with my good frens
so yea

fuck off?yes?

haha
in your face

chaoz..
k next post is going to be about the secret societies and gangsters
i just hope that no "passerby" would come and tell me that its ok to be gangster!

hah

kanesh

homo ppl not ok

2008-08-08T10:03:00.002+08:00

haaaaiiiiizzzzzz

guess what this blog is gg to be about...
its about homosexual and homophobic....

i still dont understand why asians particularly singaporeans have to turn into gay.
i mean why do they want to kiss other men or hug them or even sleep with them?
whats wrong with the females around you guys?
and why do you people need to behave what you are not by nature?.
why do you even need to be a drag?
when i see a gay on the street.
i will admire them
oh yes i do.because they take good care of their body and face.
they are extremly fashionable.
other than that i think they are just really just one big posers
if u interview any one of the gay

their answer would be
oh because i was molested
oh because gals have been hurting me
oh because i was raped n bla bla bla
i mean hello-o
arent these the exact reasons given by the gay community in america and europe?
and yea i think they get these reasons from the much hyped western serials.
sometimes its so disturbing to see gays acting so urggghhhh
their "posing" in the mrt bus n even on the streets.
and according to recent survey more teengers are becoming gay
its either to be under the "comfort" of a much older n richer gay
the other reasons are simply because they want to be the in thing

i respect the gay people at the west
the are brave enough to say that they are gay
they dont hide it from their parents or relatives
n if they do hide it
no one except the gay community would know that he is a gay
at here
we have people whom are so coward
they will say they are gay n all
but ask them to confess to their relatives or parent
their balls will shrink

gals are meant to be gals
guys are meant to be guys
"opposite attracts"
"unlike poles attract"
guys are meant to be with gals
gals are meant to be with guys

these are the simple rules of life,nature and humanity
u go against them
there goes your body
aids appears
your body immune system fails
"cauliflowers" will appear on your skin

its just not right
really
and whats with gals being lesbian
"oh guys are just assholes-they dont understand or respect us"
eh **** stop being such a coward and quitter in your life
girls kissing each other
having it with one another
urghhhhh
get a life lesbians
and there are some butches who would say
i m so man-ly
i m fat
i m ugly
no guys will love me so i want to be lesbo
eh**** it really
stop being such a sore loser in life
why cant u wait till some guy appears n sweep you off your feet

and for those bisexual
"i can enjoy both the world"
well stop being greedy la

#this post does not conclude i despise my frens whom are "special"
its just that i m telling these homo that its not OK living their homo life!

kanesh
chaoz

wohoooooo

2008-08-05T10:50:00.002+08:00

finally after this week in the rcy
i m going to stop the waiter job and be tuition teacher!!!!!!!!!!!1

ahhhhhh
i m finally gg to have my weekends to myself
as a tuition teacher

i am going to teach at a tuition centre
and one private
the money i m gg to get will be huge man
hahaha

yes arh!!!!!!!!

kanesh

pressure cooker

2008-08-01T00:01:00.002+08:00

and then there was stress in my poly life

damn fucked up sia
really really fucked up

got my lab test coming up next week
tuesday is the DE lab test
thursday is the peee lab test
fucked up la seriously

i m gg to teach a sec 4 guy near boon lay
eng. emaths , combi human
i am confident in myself that i can improve his english and the other two sub
i knw i can do it
coz i gtdisctinc for my emaths and combi

i am under a lot of serious pressure
and the last thing i need is
someone to irritate me
coz i will really snap

please dont try
seriously
i cant promise anything now

i feel like giving up everything and to go away somewher ALONE
fuck la
i m ubber emoing now

i want to be left alone

kanesh

tp lucky

2008-07-29T00:36:00.003+08:00

Temasek polytechnic won the POL-ITE rugby title

they drew with sp
10-10

its very sad
really sad
i wasnt a champion rugby player before

but the pride to be a part of defending champions
and then loose it to the arch enemy

the feeling sucks
i agree
i wasnt part of the team this year
i have my back injuries and my fitness prob

Next season its going to be a total different story my dear people
the title is coming back to sp

i am sure the year 1s and the year 2s would know wats their weakness
the total team fitnesss

we need to have training more often
more running
more gym-ing
more contact training

we need to train like dogs
we need to create bulldozers
we need to be fierce and clever

i am sure Coach sam will have ways and training for team sp to get in shape and take back what belongs to us

and i made a promise to myself
be part of the next season team with fitness level high and a much clever player

Sp will bring ( take) our title back to where it belongs

me hahaha

2008-07-28T13:55:00.005+08:00

joker

doesnt take things seriously at all
u will never knw when he is serious and when he is joking
u gt a disturbing anger
and vengefull heart

two face
someone who is actually good and bad
fickle and indecisive
vengeance in his mind

kanesh

egoistic
higly addictive
mixture of joker and two face
got a disturning smile
horny

so yea
lol
this post was for fun
kanesh

kanesh is......

2008-07-18T09:02:00.002+08:00

i am who i am

just wanted to say
i get dissappointed easily
but i will forget about it as soon as possible

my patience has a limit
but once it is crossed
my anger will have no limit

i have got high tolerence
but once its broken
i have got zero self control

i am stubborn
but i can also be "melted"

when i fall in love
i fall very deeply
but once you broke my heart
i will hate u like how hitler hated jews

i like everybody as a fren
but i have no prefrences in choosing my frens
but it takes alot to be my close/best frens

i blieve that best and close frendship takes more than half a year to be formed
but some only needs few weeks to be established

i seriously think intimate frenships are for whores and dicks
i hate people who forgets their culture and background

i love those whom are humble
but those action packed faggots
can kiss my ASS

frenship is not based on money
frenship is not based on problems
frenship is not based on how helpfull the other fren is
frenship is not based on a Cool factor( LIKE HW PPL DIE TO BE A FREN OF DB IF THEY GT A CHANCE)

I feel that every individual has their own identity
u dont have to change ur name
change ur style
change ursef
to be the in thing!
be yourself
hack care what the other mothafuckas are thinking bout u

wait a min

i just realise my blog has its own contradictory-ness( spelling correct not)

been so long since i have talked fully bout mysef
hahahah

gf is dim
but she is love
haha

kanesh

wallao

2008-07-14T21:08:00.002+08:00

ok first thing first

i never make it into the first 30-men sq in sp rugby
its ok la.
i am having this back injury plus i m nt that good either...

and yea....
i was sad the whole day
i dont know why
i skipped two lessons!

just cudnt concentrate
felt like
i dunno
as if like i need a holiday to enjoy mysef
not picking durians
not staying at home

but to be out with pavitra
i do love you and you are the one i want!!!!!
maybe i guess i m missing her too much
not guess
i m sure of it
i miss her real bad
n nnow due to some miscommunication and a little understanding
we will get betta
i have trust on this relationship

now rugby out of the way
i m free on mon after 5 n thurs after 5

so yea....
i will be working on wed n sat n sun....
the other days i gez if she has time i meet her
if not i just study la

kanesh
needs love,attention and pavitra

hectic schedule

2008-07-13T22:24:00.002+08:00

well this is wat happened for my weekends

sat and sun

met up with shawn n picked durians frm an abandoned(speeling) plantation
haha damn shiok man
the fruits are good
sunday narayan and douglas followed us !
\sun we found more durians and much more tastier!! hahaha

well this week up ahead more hectic!!!

monday-Training
tuesday-PBL till 6.30pm 7.00 pm pool
wedneday- work 3-11pm
thursday-training
friday-out with my gf(hopefully)
sat- work 10-11
sun-work 11-11

haizzzzzz
very sian!!!!

kanesh
please hope that i get into the rugby team!!!!!

durians galore

2008-07-12T23:07:00.002+08:00

Yo people,

Met shawn after so longgggg..chit chit...
ate , then we rode from smbawng to marsilng

along the gambas ave we smelled durians like no ones business
so i n shawn gt bit curios...went to al ameen for teh cino ais!!!

hahah..saw this ahpek carrying one big guni sack full of durians
whoah the smell arh steam la abang!!!
so shawn go and talk to him and bla bla bla
we tried one of his durian!!!!

whoah the taste arh!!
wallao si be jialat
very shiok sia

so yea i was turned on
the feeling of collecting durians!!!
hahahah
so yea..for the first time

i said no to my lovely gf and went for the adventure
i felt guilty all the way
so i kept smsing her
and every time i sms her

one durian drops 3 metres away from me
lol
in 3 hours we collected 6 durians
hahah!!!!!

other than durians

i just want to take this opp to tell my gf
that she means so much more to me than durians
and that i will not bite her
but i will still love her till we grow old and loose our teeths

kanesh

frustration

2008-07-09T21:28:00.003+08:00

its tiring and irritating !!!

i am all that i have

is the damn coach blind?????

geeting my shoulder hurt
back sprained
i m doing extra runs and carbo enrich food
i m fitter than some of the players

but why u ignoring!!!!!
i wanna get selected!
i wanna play for sp!!!

i want to play a part in defending sp championship
i played today against acs i and i faired good

but he refuse to choose anyone!!!

arhhhhhhhh

i wan to get selected and at least play apart!!!!!!!!

btw pavitra
i love you more than anything and anyone

love you dear!!!

kanesh

severe blow

2008-07-03T22:20:00.004+08:00

I am Demoralised

to the core

i am not selected into the school team YET

total of 30 slots

26 has been taken up

4 more slots

i was not picked

it feels like shit

rugby means so much to me

and for me to not beinf able to make it

just saddens me

wats wrong with me?

i am a WUSSY

i am scared of the opponents

no matter wat size

u knw why?

its scary rite?

yea...

and you may ask me.why play this sport if u dnt have the balls to

well rugby is my passion

is just because one freak injury i suffered and saw

it sends chills downmy spine

but yea

i just love the game

i got my basics

i want to get into the team!

FUCK YOU

i DO WANT TO GET INTO
IT DOESNT MATTER WHOS FUCKING LEG I GOING TO BREAK

i am GOING TO GIVE MY ALL

eat my meals

please lord let me tackle one person nice and hard

i will gain my confidence

pls help just once

the rest leave it to me

one tackle by me

is all that i need next training

acs(i) we going to play that sch

i am gg to fuck some idiot from that team and get into the team

rohit,ayie,fuad

i must prove to Sam that i m better than them

and get into the team

i have nothing against them

its just me

i want to play all out!!!!!!

kanesh

i love percy

2008-06-30T22:38:00.006+08:00

First thing First

must clear the dust from my blog

not been blogging for some time

anw this is wat happened

i have not been replying smses

i dont knw why..

was studying , did my mst

my aim is

maths-A

DE-A

PEEE-A

structrd prgrming-A

i expect

maths-A

DE- b/c

PEEE-B/C
struct prgrmming- A/B

been into rugby,,,

training my muscles..

i tell u it helps alot in my game
But the small bit of fear is still in me

i also dont know why

JOINED BLACKS rugby football club!!

yeah!

its in SASS

i tell SA do really invest in instilling rugby in their pupils

it can be SAJC game

cool shit man

been in love with percy so much i dnt knw why

lol
but my gf is still the best!!

xoxo

here are some pics of percy

after her haircut(grooming)

love

2008-06-20T22:42:00.005+08:00

Life is a game

You have to play it well

There are many levels

And by each level/stage you learn something new

and when u Aced the game its

GAME OVER!!!!!!

no lah..we are happy together k

bestest gf one can ever get!!!

life is sweet and beautifull with her around!!!

okay...been into rugby abit

doing weight at home

to tone my arms

but aiyahh

my belly!!!!...damn diff to reduce man!!!

anw...going to join black rugby club this sunday!!!!

looking forward

and on monday its struct prg exam!!!!

fuck i have no idea about the subject!!

its damn fucked for me!!!

someone help me please!!

kanesh

in search of fame and wealth

spore soccer needs spirit!

2008-06-15T01:34:00.003+08:00

Team Singapore

We are sick and tired going back home from the kallang stadium with our heads down!!!

You needed support

We gave you

What did you give us in return?

A 7-3 scoreline

A 2-0 scoreline

getting beaten in front of your nation

hows the feeling??

oh yea, sorry i forgot
You played like as if you have no motive no aim
no football

lets talk about the individual

Duric-the tall aussie

he is beyond his best , he is old, i dont understand why was he awarded a place in spore national team. he was so weak , tumbling over, not running, loosing posession. not even a shot on target?

khairul Amri- oh the boy wonder

he was totally off, a one on one sitiution with the keeper
and he tap the ball like a wussy.

shadan- the legend

i really had no idea what he was doing on the field. he had the stuff, but no support

wilkinson- the db alike

what the hell. why the heck was a rightmid guy doing in the centre???!!!

the others were ok,,but had no spirit!!!!
totally no spirit

precious was only big
thats why he got in the way of saudi

other than that the defence was cut open like a banana by the saudis over and over and over again!!!

the midfield got tired after just 15 mins!!!

qiu li ONLY qiu li had the spirit to play

HASSAN SUNNY was simply the best on the field
if it was not for him..the scoreline would be much more humiliating!!!

one thing for sure
singapore team misses Noh Alam Shah and Ahmad Latiff
two best players in the nation
but with a great problem with attitude

spore..if u want to dream of world cup

get players like them or groom more like them

a fighter a die hard players who gives his all and wants everything!!!!

raddy please go to some better country and get yourself some major trophies
u dont have the age by your side
so make good use of your remaining little time in football

just a disappointed reaction from spore supporter!!

my gf and i

2008-06-11T19:58:00.005+08:00

ok here i am in my boring life
i realised one life can only be fun if there are people around you
of course they have to notice you
i mean staying all caged up in your room eating sleeping attempting to study is all a bore

really

i am jobless
i have no mood to revise
my gf does not love me anymore
i am dying soon
the world is going to end

NOTTTTT

other than the jobless part
my gf loves me so much!!!!!
till she got infected by me
lol...
i was sick
she met me
and she fell sick, and she sounds scary when she speaks in her eerie voice...
haha.

i still love her alot la
ok about the revision part.
i got the mood to revise
but
haiya

not enough sources!!!!

and gosh the stupid internet and its
free movies
all so much of distraction!!!
haaaiiiyaaaaa....

old man kane

lol

my workplace the business is not good so all the part timers have no job!!!
its the most ridiculous decision made by the stoopid GM
so here i am
doing my ppt for tomorrows lesson

everything is fine so far for me
have to get into rugby first 30 thats my aim
my mst must get all A

lemme take this chance to say something about the special person in my life

she can be some other girl
she can be someone whom you know
she can be you know,you think you met her before

shes the whole world for me
she never fails to put a smile on my face
she makes me feel so loved and appreciated
she can tahan all my shit
she loves me for what i am( meow)

well she the love of my life
i love you dearie!

kanesh

my bdae chalet in ecp!!!

2008-06-03T21:09:00.005+08:00

My birthday chalet!!!

i love this gal so much

thank you pavitra for everything my dear

I really do love my family

Both my brothers

the pink is related by blood

the white is related by blood also(brother from another mother)

My family(ali also my bro)

my two ex classmates whom are doing very well in cjc n tjc

my sec sch classmates!(nick n amin)

my sp classmates(coolness)

my sec sch classmates

my brothers

Two sets of chefs

MY crazy bunch of frens!

Rugby trios

Manutd Fans

We just got a little hyper

the gals of xpjc nw sp

when comes to drink my eyeballs just loose their place

navein! one man down!

the gals from MI

i wanna thank those who made it to the chalet, despite their bz schedule and the $10

haha

i had a great time with you guys

sorry if i couldnt attend to you all on that day!

please bear no grudges yeah

once again thank u guys

kanesh

in love

drooling for fame

rombe sad

2008-06-01T22:32:00.002+08:00

Aiyoh!

i am pissed off really
i am

i cant blame those ppl who cant make it
i mean its school and studies..
but yeah

nvm

i am becoming more irritating!!!
really i realise that!

but really i love her alot
really alot

but she gt my wrath many times
and its unfair to her
she has never shown her moody-ness to me

but me la
i have to control!

i know i mean alot to her(i guess)
she means the world to me

i dont knw whether i make things good for her not
she has been for me

aiyahhhh
i m just emoing really

for being a stupid boyfriend and lover!

kanesh

my chalet shit

2008-05-31T01:56:00.003+08:00

Yo people!

planning for the chalet is a big head ache
realli iy is you know
i m taking out $450+ from my own pocket

those whom are coming i am pleased that they can spare the $10 with no complaints
i really appreciate it! love you ppl

and for those whom are way too busy or bitching behind my back just fuck off k?
thank you!

i appreciate the 35 ppl whom are coming and those who cant make it but make it a point to say sorry appreciate it
but those idiots who took only a minute to say no i think u all just f off

but friends are friends, some a holes wil be damn sacarstic. i mean i have nothing against you but u r just being ursef which sometimes can be so irriating! but yeah nvm

kanesh
contented wih what i have
but still drooling for fame

my damned bdae

2008-05-27T23:33:00.002+08:00

ITs my FUCKING BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

27th may!!!

well lemme see those who forgot me
leila,hafiz,dan,hamesh,fathur,khair,siraj, any ya timothy

well, gez i was just someone so of little importance that u all forgot me la

anyway!! wateva kay

My day started ubber boring!!!
ok my gf wished me happy bdae at 12am
gt pranked by my gf cousin sis!!!

woke up
my bro wished me

then yea
the same old fucking train ride
entered the class and ppl wished me

yea

then yea lesson as per normal
nothing much
felt sucky collecting money for the chalet

had a la

met my gf

i was very hungry and tired

and she brought me to some cupcake shop at clarke quay

i was litterally scolding her for bringing me to a dumb muffin shop!!!!

and yea when i was just about to pick my bag and go

the waitress came and put three muffins in front of me with happy birthday kanesh on three cupcakes

i was fucking surprised la

then yea ate the cupcakes

and we walked around clarke quay

and my gf gave a present

i thought it was some non return ticket to nowhere

lol

it was a G-MAX singapore first ever bungy ticket for two!!!!!

i mean i was moaning to her the other time that i wanted to go bungy with her but she said she was scared la

but she is such a sweetheart that she gained the guts to go with me

but damn it was raining!!!

so yea walk walk walk and went to lau pa sat!!

to whack seafood

we did whack like big time okay!!!!

oyster , bbq stingray, hotplate, lala, sotong, tomyam soup

two person leh!!!
wallao!

then yea anush joined us weugh

i n my baby went to yishun teatre to catch indiana jones!!!!

my god its some cool shit movie alrite!!!

oh yea my gal got me a shirt and three quarter!!!

i love her!
she made my bdae a happy moment

kanesh
feeling disspt with some of his so called frens!

my Bdae

2008-05-26T23:19:00.002+08:00

hello guys!!!

in conjuction with my bdae and bla bla bla!!!

i am holding a chalet which is going to ba a bdae celebrations cum gathering!!!

i have invited 40 ppl..
so far the 10 whom are super BUSY till they cant make it even for an evening bdae cutting cake
its okay!
whatever

yeap for those whom are coming

please confirm with me by tuesday(27/5/2008)

and those whom are coming pass me $10 by friday to my acc no
n ya..pls sms me for further details!

AND STOP ASKING ME WHO ARE COMING!!!!COZ ITS SUPER IRRITATING

somethig that i saw on internet

2008-05-20T11:39:00.003+08:00

You Are a White Rose

You represent youthfulness and purity.

Your vibe: Sweet and heavenly

Falling in love with you: is like falling in love for the first time

What Color Rose Are You?

You Are A Martini

You are the kind of drinker who appreciates a nice hard drink.

And for you, only quality alcohol. You don't waste your time on the cheap stuff.

Obviously, you're usually found with a martini in your hand. But sometimes you mix it up with a gin and tonic.

And you'd never, ever consider one of those flavored martinis. They're hardly a drink!

What Alcoholic Drink Are You?

bg align="center" style="color:#EEEEEE;">You Are 73% Passionate, 27% Compassionate

You are very passionate, especially when it comes to love.
In fact, it's sometimes difficult for you to tell between love and lust.
You jump in head first, and figure things out later... usually when it's all over!

Is Your Love Style Passionate or Compassionate?

Your Kiss is Green

Your kisses are short and sweet - at least a first.
You tend to be a cautious kisser. You don't want to scare anyone off.
Once you get to know someone, your kisses are daring... and even wild.
No matter what the situation is, you know how to deliver the perfect kiss.

Kissing Type: Varied

People See Your Kisses as: Skillful

You Kiss Best With: A Blue Kisser

Stay away from: A Black Kisser

http://www.blogthings.com/whatcolorisyourkissquiz/">What Color Is Your Kiss?

You Are a Chocolate Cheesecake

Rich and greedy, you're attracted to the dark side of life.
Nothing ever quite satisfies your inner beast. And somehow, people find that sexy.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofcheesecakeareyouquiz/">What Kind of Cheesecake Are You?

You Are Wolverine

Small but fierce, you're a great fighter.
Watch out! You are often you're own greatest enemy.

Powers: Adamantium claws, keen senses, the ability to heal quickly

http://www.blogthings.com/whichofthexmenareyouquiz/">Which of the X-Men Are You?

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Black Comedy

In your life, things are so twisted that you just have to laugh.
You may end up insane, but you'll have fun on the way to the asylum.

Your best movie matches: Being John Malkovich, The Royal Tenenbaums, American Psycho

http://www.blogthings.com/ifyourlifewasamoviewhatgenrewoulditbequiz/">If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

You Are an Espresso

At your best, you are: straight shooting, ambitious, and energetic

At your worst, you are: anxious and high strung

You drink coffee when: anytime you're not sleeping

Your caffeine addiction level: high

http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofcoffeeareyouquiz/">What Kind of Coffee Are You?

You Are a Golden Retriever Puppy

Tolerant, fun-loving, and patient.
You are eager to please - and attached to your frisbee.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatbreedofpuppyareyouquiz/">What Breed of Puppy Are You?

You Are Coke

A true original and classic, you represent the best of everything you can offer.
Just the right amount of sweet, just the right amount of energy... you're the life of the party.

Your best soda match: Mountain Dew

Stay away from:Dr Pepper

http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofsodaareyouquiz/">What Kind of Soda Are You?

sun 18/05

2008-05-19T00:36:00.002+08:00

then yeap

saw pratha swetha angela n rajesh
went to plaza singapura
met SHAN , preeti and meveen
its been like ages since i met them la
so yea did a small catch up wih them

then went off to little india to meet reghu
went for the vasabtham central auditions

it was ok

hope for the best!

then went to temple and prayed very hard so that i will be called up!

met shawn
and he was amazed by the amt of indian found in little india
most was an understatement
conquered was the word!!!
lol

we ate our hearts out gandhi!
i and shawn walked to bugis played a bit of pool and wnt back home
the saturday started at 7am and ended at 1am!!!!
busy busy!!

lol

met my baby 8am in the morning before going to werk!!
went to zam zam restaurant and whacked chicken murtabak for breakfast!!
lol

i miss her
really i do
i wish i have all the time in the world to be with her
to spend together with
keeping each other company
i love you
even though i am the most annoying thing in the universe
i love you with my heart
i know at the back of my head that i said it beofre to my x galfrens
but i realise that i have pure love for you
and not lust or anysort
you are special
someone is just so patient
so understanding
so cuddly
so wonderfull
and the list goes on
but baby
one thing is for sure
i am lucky to have you
and i wan you to be with me
love me
coz i will
coz i love you
only you

thank you my dear
i love you pavitra

kaneshwaran
in search of fame and wealth

busy day!!!

2008-05-19T00:12:00.003+08:00

okay..
havent blog for like soo long!!!!!

haha so yea

it all started on thursday
that very thursday

i was feeling kinda low due to financial strain
lol
forgot to bring my cash la
i was like how m i gg to survive rugby later since i neva eat anything from morning
i was like srewing myself la
i knw it sounds weird and u ppl my imagine very weird things n all
but no ok
i was just pissed at myself

then baby called
asked what i was doing and all
n she sensed something was wrong with me
she made me say it n she trans $$ to my acc
i was like omgawd!!!
look !! my gf need to giv me $$ all
paiseh paiseh

but i dint care as i knew i neede to prove myself to my seniors that i can play well and improved my stamina

so yea
went for training
warm up and exercise all was okay
then coach said he going to instill contact training!

i was like damn happy la
so yea
there i am, happily wanting to takedown people and get hit!
but shit sia
i went in for a try and yea i got hit
and there was a pile of ruggers on top of me
well i covered my FACE and head

but some WONDERFULL SENIOR accidentaly stepped my knee on his heel!!!!

i was like oh my fucking godddddddd

i dint scream like a bitch la
just went to the sideline , i thought it was a knock
i tried to walk it off but the pain became un bearable
it was swelling like a tennis ball!
and it radiating heat like an oven!

limped back home
went to polyclinic the next day as i couldnt move my knee
PAVITRA met me at marsiling polyclinic
she wanted to meet me
so she came all the way from her school(bukit batok)
to marsiling to PINCH ME
yea true
she missed me so much that she have to xpress it by pinching me la
but she is still the best

doc say i was luvky coz the so call injury was 3cm away from my knee
and if my knee had been the victim it would have popped
he asked me to take care and prescribed some pain killer and heat rub cream

so went to pharmacy to collect
and guess what
i was humiliated!!!
she ask for my WORK PERMIT
do i look like a bangla????
omgaaawd
pavi was like laughing and laughing
i think its my new haircut!

then yea bought her lunch since my dear was hungry

that dY ITSELF MY KNEE WAS HEALING VER VERY FAST
next day was past vs present

i could kick a ball but i couldnt express my full power i was restricted!
then yea we lost all our games ok

some people just could not stick with the same team we had last year
had to bring in new people!!

and yea i was provoked by a very FUGLY PIGLET called pobay or what shit his name is
well sunny
look at yourself in the mirror
u got dumped by a chinese girl after one month!!!!!
fuck you bloody bastird!

next i wnt to change
n yea saw my old mates
was quite warm feeling la

pika shawn n the small scrum half guy (forgot his name)
were great guys
but yea there are some SPOLIT EGGS like berhan and the law guy
aiyah
what can i say
childish people will realy be childish
assholes will always stink!!!

huh!!

inconsiderate ppl

2008-05-15T13:24:00.003+08:00

I NEED TO BLOG ABOUT THIS! I MUST!

whats wrong with these singaporeans?
i mean those who would be RUSHING FOR WORK or HOME

bloody hell 7am in the morning when u are half asleep and half awake dragging yourself to school
and then there they are pushing you nudging,shoving you!

my goodness these people are terrible
and when its bout 7.30
there comes to most annoying bunch of people!
those lazy people who woke up late and rushing for werk like some crap

i mean i m rite there by the side of the door letting others to alight and there are those who are simply in considerate!
blocking those who are alighting and pushing aside those who "q" by the side of the door
and with little amount of shame they will pack themselves in the mrt like a sardine!
its so bloody annoying
i know that we are known for being labelled as "kiasu"

but we are just being simply impolite and inconsiderate

and then there are those grumpy aunties!
those hags are deserve tight slap on the face man

i mean when its peak hour, nudging and some pushing do occur
but these old ladies who think they are some holy grail
will give us the stupid stare and they will whisper something to themselves as if we are being rude and bla bla

eh if u all think, u shudnt be nudged or touched take a cab or buy your own vehicle la dont take the mrt la stoooopppiiiiiddddd

haaaiiiizzzzz,,

feel much better
but what to do

have to face this crap every morning!

kanesh

poly rocks

2008-05-14T13:00:00.003+08:00

HEY hey

yea!

i blogging again!!!!

well first of all

my new blog song rocks rite??!!!!
yea.OM shanti OM . ajab si.. so rocking la!
lol...well i am no a big movie fanatic of bollywood, but i do watch shah rukh khan and kajol movies la.
i am a bloody indian so i watch kollywood alot la.
those black skin( i also la) , but those posers who thinks they are kewl because they watch hindi movies can FUCK OFF

okay.next
me and reghu going for the vasantham auditions this sat!.
i am acting out the climax of sathosh subramaniam where "jeyam" ravi talks to his dad

ya ya.
reghu going for the host position!.
well all the best frendu!

next, oh oh oh oh enna anothooo!lol
listening to song!
randomn la me

yea,anw

i am like preparing for my mst a month before sia!
i mean i should la. since i wanna get into uni!
my structured prog lab test i got an A (84),
but there are those who got 90+
so which means i must buck up fast!

rugby
fuck la
quiet pissed off la with the trainig!
this week oni got one training!
bloody hell next week we got our rugby M1 ten's compt
and we never get proper training sia!

damn la

next,well my life is getting fucking busy sia!
no time for my baby also!
damn.
but nvm la. its for the FUTURE? rite?

well i got a hectic saturday coming up
morning Past vs Present compt
next auditions
then dinner with the relatives of my gf!
woot woot
i m looking forward for my busy saturday!!!

hehehe

well i m off to home now

going to revise my maths and digi eng and pee
if possible
but maths i must
since i got test tomorrow!

lol

life is wonderfull and always would be if you have a great attitude and principals and of course your fucking determination with a little bit of great frens by the side

kanesh

eh-oh

2008-05-13T16:58:00.004+08:00

Hello people!!!

yea was quiet busy ,,,

many things to be updated!

i and my gf had our first misunderstanding, hopefully its the last

my frens gt some prob
i mean, if u make someone your friend you should accept them even if they change,
i mean come on la, friends are suppose to be much more trustworthy and give more support than family.
and jux bcoz that person is a little bit wonderfull than usual, you want to ditch.
well it says much bout your character though,

yes!

MANUTD ARE THE CHAMPS AGAIN!!!!
liverpool , arsenal , chelsea supporters
please shut your sweet gap and admit you are defeated and stop saying you are building team for the Fucking future!
such a sore

hmmm..

my bdae is coming!
27th may
i have never felt like it is special day to me before
i dont know why
but i want to celebrate it with my frens ONLY

no parents!!!

hopefully my fren can donate some fundings to the chalet( so unglam of me but sorry i quite tight la)

but nonetheless i have planned it out nicely and smoothly!

so yeap

well

i dont expect much presents
but if you feel like giving
DO GIVE ME PRESENTS!!(* snort snort)

till next time peeps

take care
kanesh

( i still hope for my manutd long sleeve original jersey man!! with the name of rooney no10 at the back...haizzz))))

cheers

1st rugby training

2008-05-06T01:20:00.002+08:00

MOnday
the 5th of may
The shittest day of my life

Early morning had an argument with my mum
met my baby late,
went to sch
rushed to admin office filled up my tuition grant shit
went to west mall
got my new nike street soccer shoes
missed my first lesson,digital engineering
went for maths
was super irritated with my maths topic
TRANSFORMATION

shittiest shit of all( its like hes repeating whetever i heard when i was sec 4)
then went for my rugby training!

whoahhhhhhhhh

i really enjoyed every sec of my training today
i felt so relieved and good!!!
felt like kanesh is back

I M BACK(billa theme music in the background)

wallaowehhhhh

i m super happy la
feeling the rugby ball
throwing it, catching it
arhhhhhh

i just ran my ass off la
though at times i was bored
(coz we were playing touch rugby!!)
i mean come on la
touch rugby only for girls
guys who are playing touch rugby are just......
do i need to say more?
lol

hopefully coming thursday we got contact!
i still havent throw anyone over my head !!!
i want to

training lasted for an hour half
felt no kick la
last time in pj every time we train ,i would be so tired that if i had cash i would take a cab!
but no,
after today's training
i had to kick the ball and swing the ball out( lost bit of touch)
i wanted to run 2,4kbut to no avail.
so i bathed and packed up
i called my sweeetiieeeeee

i felt so bad la
i was super grumpy this morning,
always scold her
its not that i want to
bu i was feeling so tight( meaning i had to do something!!)

so after the light training
i called her and talked to her nicely
i felt good
i hope she felt good

i want to treat her better
coz i cant do without her man!

i love my pavitra aka pavitra begum( only i can call her that)

now my life is complete , this is wat i wud be doing for the next 3 years!!!
i got my cca, my class, my love, my part time work

i m damn happy la
but really i need to raise the tempo of my game!!!

rill net time peeps
kanesh
in search of fame and wealth

idiots

2008-05-02T22:40:00.003+08:00

what the heck is wrong with me?????

i am not saisfied with who i am now.

friendship seems like fucked up thing

music -- been hearing the same old shit over n over again

going to school, work is a very stressed up shit!.

trust me
those idiots rushing home and to work are so annoying pls!.shove here shove there

i miss the kanesh i was!

happy go lucky, dint care bout my past happy with wat i had.
i would not smile but i would not have grumpy face

sometimes
i feel like why dont i do something that i love and get paid for it?

but i have to swalow the bitter fact that in order to survive and to provide for the family
you have to let go off your interest to earn the cold hard cash

i do envy those who spend theirweekends at home, unlike me spending my ass off at some dumb hotel and getting paid $6.50 an hour

i am like come on laaa

gimme a break

argh
whatever it is i have to work.my dads old la.
i have to stand on my own feet,

At one point of time in my life i had so many friends,
now i seem like one of the many rather than MR popular

one would be thinking why bother?
sorry but its just me
i like attention!
and yes i want them!

i want everyone to look at me and say :he is living the dream:
i want those idiots who looked down on me, whom just made a mockery of me to turn behind and say:you know i know that guy: rather than :oh he was an ass la:

u get wat i mean...

i am in need of alot n alot of attention
for that i need to be myself

come monday,
u all shall see who the real kanesh is,

buy seriously i need my rugby training!!!
till then

kaneshh

my befdae wish

2008-05-01T22:54:00.002+08:00

my birthday coming upppppppp

wat do i want.......

lets seeeeeeee..

1) I want a manutd original (long sleeve) jersey ( no 10 wayne rooney) red colour or black
2) shades? a black one( not the big one la)
3) jeans(size 34)
4) perfume
5) shirts

aiyah thats wat i think laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..
just get me laaaaaaa

due to a failed 18th birthday
i hope things will be better la

anyway
sorry for not being humble laaaaaaaaaaaa

kanesh
with love

rugby!

2008-04-29T20:48:00.002+08:00

i am so looking forward for rugby training coming monday

i played a PROPER street soccer today
scoring handfull of goals!!!
yea!
volleying shooting passing all the touches i am beginning to regain my touch
which i have to since past vs present in pjc is coming up soon!!!

should be better than last year and must own every game!!!!

haizzzzzz

rugby,its still in my mind
i m over excited over tha fact that i going to play the man's game at last after such a lenghty period!!!!

arhhhhhhh

studies,aiseh man,,i dnt knw, i come back home blank learning nothing!
forgetting everything taught in class
i just tend to sleep in class w/o even realising i
and often being attacked by the paparazzi in my class

haiyaaaa
must buy fishermans friends everyday n suck on it so that i can stay awake

i read my gf.s blog!

i m rombe touchED ! i cant find words cant do anything
just sit down in front of my lappie and reading the post all ova again n again
i feel so much appreciated!!
so lucky to have her as my gf!!!
but sadly i cant send her home everyday,
only on tuesdays
yea
only on tuesdays

monday _ my rugby
tuesday_ see her
wednesday_her drama
thursday_my rugby
friday_her drama
sat_my work
sun _my work

lol

nevermind
absence makes the heart go fonder

i love her she loves me too
we know that when we wake up and before we sleep

other than that i must start to conc on my studies ready!
i must be top 5% in my batch!!!!!
its a must
a vow that i took before entering poly!!!

kanesh
in search of fame and wealth

my Wish List

2008-04-23T21:21:00.003+08:00

some of the things i want it as soon as possible

mp3 player( a black one)
w960i ( i love that)
size 32( asap!!!!!)
digi cammm( 7.0 megapixel)
a new pair of Dc shoe(snickers?)
4 pairs of bermudas(black and brown)

aiya so much more............

i am really really really deprived of rugby!!!!!!

really deprived!!!!!!!!

sorry pavitra!

lol
she knows why i say sorry

kanesh
in search of fame and wealth

2008-04-18T11:06:00.002+08:00

Damn!!!

i been sleeping ..
ok lah taking a short nap in every of my lesson!!!..i cant help it!
its so cosy in my classroom
the temp i mean
i sleep oso..i dont know why i cant stop!
so far i did three class assignments
seem to get all full mark
lets hope this continues
so that i can get my gpa score of >3.8

and i have to maintain and improve my attitude towards studies.
i aim to get the gold medal at the end of my 3rd year!
with all-rounder cert or something

my morale hit ground level zero
been high up there recently
thanks to pavitra
i mean its not that i m telling this because she is my gf and bla bla bla
its true
after withdrawing from jc
had wasted a TOTAL OF 2 years
one in pri 4 and one last year
when i thought i was stupid and had a very low self esteem

she made me believe in myself..
i thought i going to suck in comp eng and stuff
but she tell me things in the right way to lift my spirits up!
like a direct hit on the nail!

ahhh, so lucky to have her as my gf

hopefully i m something for her also

well

i think i have been doing a good job as a class rep, any improvements?
i think its my attentiveness in the classroom!

and also RUGBY!!!!!
where are you my beloved rugby....
i am waiting for my training!!!!
waiting!!!!
quick quick!!!!
hit me hard!!!.lemme get up and hit you harder!!!!

argh!

kanesh
loved and loves
in search of fame and wealth

damn

2008-04-16T09:30:00.001+08:00

I am fucking pissed!!!!!!
going close down my blog soooonnnnn
fucked up internet!

kaneshwaran

kanesh in sp

2008-04-15T22:03:00.002+08:00

give me a week more and i would be all settled down at sp.....

i have been getting more tired and tired as the days are getting by....
the days are so draggy!!!!!!

i need to sleep 10 mins for every lesson!!!!!..really i dont know why.but i have to...
my body and mind are all getting used to the new environment!!!
after which i have to get my guns and bullets now to fire myself
all the way to gpa of 3.8!
and then make my way to NUS or NTU or maybe ROLLS ROYCE

i need to get back to rugby!!!!i can feel my jeans getting tight!
omg this cant be happening!
pavitra feed somemore laaaa...you and your white choc...
u know i like it when u feed me...but not so much k
do u want ur bf to have a toppae and walk around??
i am sure not

i must go on diet programme!!!
i cant readyyyLOL!!!!

next,,,,
rugbyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
faster faster i cant wait sia!!!!!
i am going to buy my rugby shorts with baby 2mrw

the class contact list gone laaaaaaaaaa
i got 20 names but my class got 21!!!!
dont know whos that one more bagger
siannnzzzzzzzzz

must be a good and responsible class rep!

till then
kanesh
in search of fame and wealth
i love you baby!!!

hectic day

2008-04-14T00:54:00.004+08:00

whoah!!!!!!!

basket am i a robot or what???i mean i am happy

but is this the way for me to enjoy mysef?????

met my airport clique at yishun bought the tixs for the midnight double show then we went to sembawang beach there to makan seafood!!!

ordered crab and prawns and bla bla bla....after a while the waitress came and told us that no more crab! no more kangkong!!!!!!!

what the F###!!!....

anw..we then ordered prawns fish deer meat baby squid

the food was OK..other than that,nothng much..had a great time teasing reghu,,,but we all can take jokes laaaaaaa...

thats the good thing bout us la

then we went back to yishun to catch the movie

that movie is called "Santosh Subramaniam"

my favourite actors together

jayam ravi and prakash raj!!!!

omg!!!!!.....

other than people sayin that i look like jayam ravi

i mean i adore him because hes damn good actor!!!!

i dare to say he acts WAY BETTER than VIJAY

lol

the movie was hilarious laaaa

realli realli hilarious!

the theme of the movie

LOVE MAKES LIFE BEAUTIFULL

haaaaaaaa....pavitra was in my mind.....

i then smsed her.......

love makes life beautifull ..pavitra makes kanesh life beautifull and wonderfull

is this sweet talking?

i dont know..really i dont, i just smsed her whatever i felt

i am like all over her!..not physically emotionally attached i meant.

i missed her!

then the next movie was thotaaa...a mere boring gangsta movie

huh

i was like feeling

wait till i become a police officer in singapore and i will set my sight on taking out the trash of the youth!

i tell you those baggers out ther who thinks they own the world just because they r in fuc**** gang,

when officer kanesh hits the town.i will shuffing my baton up ur asses i tell u

k k k k

then came back home like in the 7.30

was on the phone with my love..i was like talking so loud and cheery like no ones biz...

my baby was like "kaneshhhhh( i like it when she addresses me by my name its so special and diff than others) i have been there and done that..we shall see hoe cheery you are later

i was like omg!!!u curse me ready gone!

yea.so after my prayers!

i went to bed and slept till 12.30.

then bathe changed and met her!!!

haaaaaa..shes my eyecandy!

the moment i saw her..i was like ohhh god. i m in my drunkard moment

and yes i was!,,my limbs were weak and i was like blabbering!!

bla bla bla fast forward..

when to shan house with pamala for his bdae party!

it was great la

he loved the belt that i bought for him!!!

haha!

my gal bought him the "happy birthday sexy thing" medal and he was hyper laaaa

pamela got him the PINK superman pillow for him to hug!!!

lol

then at bout 6 i sent my baby to sengkang and we were rotting in the mrt station

THATS ALL

heres the pic we took!

kanesh
in search of fame and wealth
i love u Pavi G........

love

2008-04-13T07:45:00.001+08:00

love Makes Life Beautifull..........
kaneshwaran

FLaG DAy

2008-04-10T22:42:00.002+08:00

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeessssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

FLAG DAY IN SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC

yeaaaaa....

school havent start, and we have to do the flag day!
i mean i am the kind of person who hates doing cip but somehow rather i will end up rather higher cip points than others in the school.LoL

BUt for the first time, i woke up at 4.30am!!!
msg everyone in my class!!! at 4.45am!
lol
then left my home at 5.30am
was at lavendar at 7am!
then walk all the way to mustafa centre and then to tekka market

and yea!!!
honestly i enjoyed it!
yes!!!!!!!
i wanted to do the cip till the cows home because i got so much support!!!!!
really!
though it was freaking hot and i was drenched in my sweat!
but ya i realise one thing.
alot and i mean alot of indian girls came to me and smile and donated!
i was like what??!!!!
why smile smile..my zip open huh??i check my zip,it was zipped up,
that was rombe weird okay
i neva get this kind of attention.
i guess its the tin la
something with the tin!maybe yaaaa...lol

anwwww

boarded the 147 at little india.slept all the way!!!!!
my pavitra smsed me and i never realised!!!
when i wake up i replied her
shes such a sweetheart!

went back to sp..counted the collection i collected about 55.80!!

so went back home,,,,,thinking of her
never send her home u knw!!!!
i rombe sad!!!!!!
dint get my dosAGe

im on the phone with my gal
she says i love you!
and i say i love you toooooooo:)
and thanks to the well wisher!

kanesh
in search of fame and wealth

i love her

2008-04-09T00:07:00.004+08:00

today is a special day!.

i propose to her!!!

k this is what happened!
i skipped my second half of my lecture to meet pavitra
i went to my sch mc..sat there with dennis
ate some junk food, i did some of my prep maths lessons,
then i rushed off to bukit batok
i was not sure whether bukit batok had any florists not
but i knw that je mrt has one

but i dnt want to be late
so went straight to bukt batok
n yaaaa,,, i saw one at the basement level!
but pricing i have no comments!

but it dint matter
i wanted to get her sun flower bouquet but damn they dint have any
the one they had was rombe dead
damn laaa
but i bought the dark red roses!
the damn dark red ..omg i love those roses
anyway bought it..
i dint want to walk to her carrying it waaaatttt.
i wanted some element of surprise

so yea
took out my laptop and put it in my bag and zipped up carefully
so yea
went to meet her and pamela was there!!!
i was like i m going to see pamela!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhh
ya i have only been talking to her
so when i met her it was like ahhhhhhh

i dint want to take out the flowers then
we waited for the bus
yeap we boarded
and pamela was like pushing me
manatha vaangkaraen meeeee
till the lady who sat in front and beside us moved two or three forward
lol

then i took out the flower
n pamelaaaaa screamed!!!!
n pavitra turned to her and cover her face
i was like
waaaaaaatttt
i put the bouquet down!
she scream as if i flased something censored
lol

and yea...i was like holding it and gave pavitraaa this is for you
she was like okay
they liked the bouquet
say it was rombe nice!
i was like super shy laaaaaa

then as we were sitting down and pamela manatae vaangaraen us
a group of ns guys came up the bus
i was like oh my god
ns guys!!!
pavitra was like omg they r my friends!
and yea i realise it was suren!!!!
after a while i realised sree was one of them too

and yea we reached yishun
sent pamela off at yishunn mrt
and we were walking through the blocks
i was like kanesh ou have to do it you to do it
she is special, face to facr, go kanesh go
but yea, i propose in a very jovial tone
and she rejected me!!!!
5 times in 2 minutes!!!!!!!!
omg
i suck at being romantico
and then i lowered my voice.cal and collected propose to her
she say no again and can smile somemore!
then after a while i ask her to hold the flowers and tell her better to be my gf!
and she was like ok la ok la
hehe
it might not be the most romantice thing but it was special

yea then sent her home
and then met shawn to have a go on seafood

i would like to thank those who were either directly or indirectly supporting
pamela,nicholas,shan,timothy

and yes pavitraaaaa i love you very very much

kanesh
in search of fame and wealth

i found my balls!

2008-04-08T09:21:00.003+08:00

LOL

your bimbotic yindian blogging!!!!!!

first day in sp..
found out who my classmates are.
saw some of my pjc mates there
zubeeeeeeee.daryllllll lol
back to my class
at first i was really shocked and flabbergasted(spell correct not)
20 classmates only 2 girls!!!!
omgggggg!

i miss my pjc bimbotic classmates!!!! i want another hazlyn n vivian in my classs !
but yea i have to accept the fact its gg to be an all boys class for the next three years!

i am really looking forward to get down hard and study well to get my consistent gpa of 3.8 throughout my 3 years!..i must and i should since i aspire to become a pilot n senior police officer

i already got my timetable..its ok lah. 10 am to 5pm is the longest day
i am joining rugby! but before that shall try my luck with sp soccer first.
right back or forward

haiiizzzzz..
i shall remember to remeber not to be a monkey and flung my semester !
i shall remember to be all rounder student
once in a while or most of time feelinf good and self praise is importance for your basic survival!
lol

well, i am the class rep(monitor or chairman la) for my class
looking forward for the 3 great years in Singapore poly with my class!

so yea

i propose to her via sms!( the answer still on pending mode)
LOL
then yea.went out wit her
i suppose to buy flowers or at least something la
but i dont knw wher the heck i put my bloody atm card!!!!
so embarrassing can?
omg!!!
thank god i with drew 100 dollars the previous night
if not pavitra had to pay for everything!
but yea..
i am a good guy lol
i pay laaaaaaaaaaa

and she!!!
ASK ME TO GO PIERCE MY OTHER EAR!!
SEE ME IN PAIN!!

anw.you r such a lovely gal!

kanesh
still in search of fame and wealth

how are u ppl

2008-04-06T19:29:00.002+08:00

yo!!!!
its been sometime since i updated my blog!!!!!

ya i going start off with my secondary school peepz chalet!
it was rockin!
we had so much fun!
apart from those sobbering idiots everything was rocking!
i rajan n mesh drank n drank n drank
mostly mr and rajan la
bombay saphire, absolute, jack daniels, gordons dy gin
haiiizzzzzzzz
was practically high throughout the chalet!

food was okay,bbq was fun
i mean its not always u going to meet your frens
especially your sec school frens
everyone have changed i guess

but yea, i and rajan would always get along laaaaaaa

over these few days , things have been blooming i guess
i told her everything i feel via sms
and via phone call
lets hope things go very well between us

to my friends whom are readin this
i think i finally found someone who i think will understand my character!!!!

till next time
kanesh
in search of fame and wealth

sunday!!!!

2008-03-30T17:55:00.002+08:00

finally one whole sunday at home!

LoL been a while since i stay at home

been away working and not spending any time at home

but this long 4 day break been great!

LoL

i dont know whats paVi is busy with

yea she neva call me!!!

or reply my sms!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anw.

i watched panjathanthiram!

and WHITE CHICKS

lol

super great movies la

watching panjathanthiram i dont know.

i hope things would have gone fine

even though kamal and simran broke up

they somehow rather end up together

i am not saying that i want to patch or anything

its just that you know

everyone of us hoped that things would have gone the way we like it right???

yea.

anyway

white chicks was like super funny can?!!!!!

haha..i watch that movie with my sec sch bestie rajan!

when we were sec 3 or 2 la

something like that laaa

nostalagic

but yea, we went on seperate ways la

whoah i rombe bored la

tv tv tv tv tv sleep sleeep sleeeepppp

anw yea...thats all for my SUNDAY

and yea MANUTD WON 4-0!!!!!

we going to be the champions again!!!!!

kanesh

in search of wealth fame and that love

night cycling

2008-03-29T16:30:00.002+08:00

i dint go to sp camp!!!!!

i was super lazy laaaaaaa

packed my stuff till 5.30

then woke up at 8 to go camp

i changed and got ready and stuff

and when reached the void deck

my eyes started to tear

coz i was super sleeeepyyyyy!!!!!

then smsed pavitra

she asked me not to be lazy !!
but was too sleepy

i went back home to sleeeep

but i couldnt!my body was sleepybut my mind was fresh!

and i dint sleep

i was downloading my msn messenger

then was chatting chatting

then shan called me and ask me to follow

him go sungei buloh!

got down on kranji

and walk all the way to sungei buloh!

omg!!!
the bloody hot torching sun was brning us!!!

me shan dayal n shafiq

all of us were crappin all the way to sungei buloh!

i think we walked about 20 km!!!!

then in sungei buloh we walked the 7 km trail!!

a total of 27 km!!!!!

thank god it rained a little when we were going back

then the fren of mine called

i tell u he can be such an ass u know

everything has to be done his way

fuck u laaa

demanding from me

people whom i know longer than u persuaded me to come

unlike u who demanded me to be there by 7.15

whateva it is u r still my fwen

but sometimes u can realli can be a pain in the ass

so yea i rush back home from kranji

changed in 5 mins!

and went off to yishun!
met dian!!!!!my lovely bestie!

its been a while since i saw her!

the moment we met we started insulting each other in a joking manner!

LoL

We have a lot in common

being a sour monster is one of those passions of us

LoL

went to the shop bought two packs of ASAM!!!

hehe

dian came from her aunty house

and i told her before i was coming from kranji and had not eaten anything yet

so thoughtfull of her

that she brought packed rice from her aunts home

it was nasi minyak with ayam masak merah with dalcha!

so yea i started eating it

and within ten mins the lorry came there to pick us up!

so with one big bite

the whole chicken drumstick became bone!

LoL

the food was super nice can!!!

then yea hoped on the lorry!

haha felt like going for some picnic

those who had their own bikes brought along so we stacked it

and sat ant the back

the bloody driver was driving super fast la!!!!
wallao!

each time he breaks we move forward and he purposely will take a sharp turn laaa

baskeetttt

lol

was fun la

so yeap we went to bp and to commonwealth to pick up the other guys and went to

ecp!!!!then those who dint have bike on theor own rented a bike overnite

the bikes were okay and standard

but the hand grips were fucked up!

coz now it had made the lower end of my palm to be swollen!

so i shall now mention all the pit stops

ecp,kallang stad carpark,adam road,macritchie shell,some macdonalds la,lakeside mrt,ulu pandan reservoir,west coast cheese prata shop! orchard road and east coast park

the ride was much more fun after some ppl went off at lakeside mrt!

came back to ecp at 7.30

i was sweating!!! my shirt boxers shorst leg and socks were all drenched in sweat!!!

came back bath in a cold shower and slept!

woke up talked to pavitraaa and now blogging!

next nite cycling have to be planned by me n dian!!!

lol

i dnt knw what route i want to come up with!

lol

till next time

kanesh

still in searcof fame ,wealth and that persons LoVe

nicknames!!!!!!

2008-03-27T22:18:00.002+08:00

hellllooooo

people!!!!!!!

hows my new blogskin?????
nice not huh????

i mean ya..
music is all around us whaaatttttttt

u dont have to sing alot or be a singer to enjoy good music!

pavitraaaaaaaaa
she got a lot of nicknames

but yea i am nice so i wont tell it out!!!!!!

hmmmm

i went out the whole dayyyyy

morning i met kishore
brought him to suntec city
he did some shopping!!!!!!!!!
lol

then i met shan tim dayal puva shafiq

met them at zam zam restaurant
ate briyani
everyone could not finish
but i finish
n bought a egg prata
and drank two cans green tea!!!!

so hot la today
it rained
and we played poolllll

then we crapped the whole day laaa

talked cock and stuff till we went to tekka and ate tandoori chick with tea!!!

shan wanted to join some talent compt
and we decided to join dhool
so we plan out everything and what to do

but we were finding for name
foxes,ak,kilaz, all shit all came la

till i suddenly came up with one name because i am always thinking of getting back in shape
and suggested 8 paX

and when the host asks why we call ourselves 8 pax,other than 8 ppl in the compt
we will pull up our shirt and show our 8 pack!!!!

lol
that idea just hyped up everyone
so yea starting from today every one of us gg to do 500 crunches!!!!

dont b surprised if u see a hot kanesh by june
LOL i can hear ppl sayin dream on
but yea i wll make u eat ur words

and yea.
called pavi to tell our idea
and she literaly spit on my face via phone laaaa

basket!!!

and she say when it happens she will tell her fren that hot tim is her fren
forget me all la

shit rite???

ok finish emoing

i need to pack for tomrw orientation camp at singapore polY!
sorry trainers i couldnt join u all for the night cycling tomrw
but will catch up with u guys very sooonnnnnn

till then

kanesh
still in search of fame and wealth an also for that love

heloo!!!! what the hell?

2008-03-26T10:30:00.002+08:00

i would like to this opportunity to declare that
i am over divya, and i do not want to get back with her okay!!!

enough of the miscommunication can????

once i made a decision i am stubborn i wont turn back!
i made a decision to wait n see what is in store for me and her
i am waiting........

thats all i can sae
well i n nick got back on good terms....
well,,, not as close as before
but we have not divorced yet

bro, u have been there for me everytime,
when everyone were too busy u were there
u cant just become a nobody to me deh

i value friendship

kanesh

back to the cyber!!!

2008-03-25T11:22:00.002+08:00

yo!!!
i m back!!!!

i got my lappie!!!

aha aha ha haha haha aha hah!!!!!!!

randomn la

anw

if my blog is being read
i just want to say i know how to tc of myself
i aint a gay
i am straight!!!

and btw pavitra n pamela!!!

i am not attracted to old women with big boobs okay!!!!

but if they ARE rich i dont mind lol!!!

well shan is totally over her
but still has some anger and hatred
aha
now u knw hw i felt when it happened to me????

be in the position n u will knw hw i fel
nevertheless, i m happy with i am now

not so much but i m happy la

bro i will always be here for you okay??

anw shan inviting me to his bdae n alll

but heard shes cming also
so i dont knw whether i will come or not laaa
smmre i got my orientation so yea

must think

but no one can stop me from attending my bro bdae!!!!

too much anger

2008-03-16T01:53:00.003+08:00

i am sad for shan!
he broke up with his gf
i m feeling for u, my bro!!!!
dont worry!!!!
i m here daaaa
call me da!
i wonder why ppl have to brk up when they are doing their a level!!!!!!!!
argh!!!
i m so fed up!!!!!!

pamela and pavitraa are nagging at me for blogging when i m on the phone with them!!!!
wallaowehhhh

i think i was too furious,
let my emotions take a better of me.

anyway,today rombe tired!..ppl sms, i tried sms, but was too busy!
so never reply
went back home,dragging my leg,listening to song

i confess that i am in love with billa song!!!
nice lyrics!!!!

yea. got my pay!!!!!!!!!!

i shall go get the w960i
i sold it away after some incident!

ok, my muay thai lesson confirmed! every thursday at 6pm at boon lay
i am super excited.

btw u never made me up in your mind.
u turned me into this!

anw, friday is my fwens berfdae!!!!!
i dont know what to get for my dear fren!!!!

anyway, there were 2 persons born this day!!!

vaishnave and rathi!!!
rathi and vaish 18!!!!!

legal!!!wanna go clubbing not?
i bring u?

i do the cocktail for you!!!!!
hehe
margarita?

hehe

anyway,
i am on the phone with pavitraaaaa and pamelaaaaaa

funny girls with funny past with funny feminism!!!
they went for a makeover at bugis!!!
they look much more betterrrrrr
preety preety!!!
okay?
hmph
lol
lol

ok so now i got my $ i got my muay thai my camps my makeover.....my bisceps!!!!
thanks for the carrying of heavy plates!!!
one plate 1.5kg!
and i carried 30 plates today!!!
30X1.5=45kg!!!!

oh ya
i must go buy "dumbells"(is that how u spell it??

so yea!!!

singapore poly faster faster..
kanesh cant wait!!!!!

i shall not forget i m going for poly to make my dad proudd!!!

so kanesh

and pamela will want to hang up laaaaaa

kanesh
in search of fame and wealth yea??!!!!!

it sucks

2008-03-14T01:36:00.003+08:00

sometimes it sucks to be alone,
it sucks to turn around and see only friends
sometimes i wish
i wish i had someone
maybe i am just not appreciating anything i have now

it often reminds of the past
the mistakes the immaturity in me
the chidish
the wild side of me
i have been like alone for 3 months that is
single i mean
but hey

i do enjoy it , at times,
it feels like shit
when u see other couples
or even when u hear or see ur bloody x having someone else
you would be wpndering why am i still alone
why cant i get someone else to love mee
i cant explain the feeling
maybe its just me?

i have been spending my time with guests at raffles hotel
smiling giving them the service(of a waiter that is)
i tend to get jealous
when i see couples, whom are not so compatible in looks
but they are so lovin
they hug kiss enjoy the ambience of the restaurant

after which i will laugh it off by telling myself
you may never how long this can last before someone breaks someone else heart

i aint saying i m despo to have a gf
all i am saying is the mix feelings of a single

maybe i am not having a life
work , sleep , work
i am missing alot of time with my family
i really do miss my sis
but when i wake up for work she is asleep
when i am back home she is asleep
only my mum would be awake

but heck my mum is just giving me the attention so that i can give her some cash
when i get my pay
so much to care for me huh mum????

my dad, haiz
he calls and talks but i rarely spend time with him
but today i did spend some time with him
we went to apply for bank loan
went for lunch
dad wanted to buy a reading glass
but it was freaking ex
i always wanted to spend some $$ for my dad but
i will end up spending everyting on unwanted things
i love my father
he may not be the best husband
but he is surely the best dad one could ask for
he have sacrificed himself for us
for the family
he is 60!
and he is still working
to supprt the family
not like some drunkard dad or
dad whom whacks the mum in front of the kids
i sometimes feel like shit
as the eldest son
i am not doing my best
i am just doing average
i have never give my personal best in anything to do with studies
this time my diploma
i am going to hit gpa score of 3.8 at the end of poly life
i am going to make uni to come after me n not me gg after them
dad.
the next three years of education
its for you
i love you, naina

i promised shawn for seafood
i wonder how much that gg to cost me
haiz

money money money

you wonder whether people love you for what you are
or love you for what you have
shawn is a good fwen indeed
but haiya its me laaaa

look at the time!
its 2am!
i am wide awake
feeling so alone

all are sleepin
i am all alone watching some crap in the tv

well to think of my dream career
actor of course

the following movies and roles
is what i would have love to act
:-

matrix(keanu reeves role)
billa2007(ajith role)
godfather(ajith role)
deepavali(jayam ravi role)
vali(ajith role)
pokiri(vijay role)
gajini(suryas role)
nandha(surya role)
aalavanthan(kamal hassan role)
panjathanthiram(kamal hassan role)
villain(ajith role)
badboys(will smith role)
dr doolittle(eddie murphy role)
BATMAN
james bond

haizzz.
hopefully my lucky star would shine at a right time so that i can you know get a big break to act!

no dramas please!
lol, no offence , but yea i don fantasize on doing dramas
only
pure movie!

i think thats all la

kanesh
peace out

i wish i can tell you
i wish i saw you ealier
i wish time was just right
i wish to have known you longer
i wish i know whats in your mind
i am unsure
i dont want to scare you away
i jusy dont wanna loose
not now
not yet
maybe not at all
time will tell
if it meant to be
either one will
and surely will
confess
even though we both know we like each other
but as i say
if it meant to be
it meant to be
if not
its not
till then, this thing we have
i dont know what we call it
let it just be like this

club

2008-03-11T19:23:00.003+08:00

okay...
what have i turn into?
what do i have now?

hmmmmm
i am doing club tix selling
camp instructor
waiter at raffles

i am spending more than i earn
i dont know why

suddenly i am into this thingy
piercing
wearing like a bloody kuppae
my style is smart yet rugged
i wont shave that much
but i will look neat and smart
thats my style

hmmmm
now i have been shaving
looking neat
but i dont bother combing because
i think i look better with messy hair
u know what i wish i can wear?
tight white t-shirt
levis black red 901 jeans
white snickers
black half rimmed specs
messy hair
clean shaven

i would look great or not?

i talk to mama!!!!
haha
long tme never talk
he was away when i was gg through the fuckin shit that bitch gave me

but he would call n tell me to forget that girl
and that i never loose anything!
its true la
what did i had to loose

anw
we talked like for an hour
ea
he said life been very down lately for hom
ya la
hes always in the wrong place at the wrong time

hopefully he would be back sooon

i told him that i broke up with the girl
he told me something that made me think la
but let it be to mysef!

i love you mama!
faster come back
and lets go vedaikeran the kuppaes n anjadi we find n tekka!!!

lol
till next time
kanesh
in search of fam and wealth and mysef!

life is boring

2008-03-11T19:23:00.002+08:00

wake up
shower
mrt
work
mrt
shower
bed

my life
how cool huh?
working my ass off i dont know why
while others are at home living at the comfort of their parents money
here i am working
i am just too fed up to ask for money from my parents
its always no money or is it necessary?

i never get what i want

now i am
i get money
in my pocket almost all the time
i think this is the first time i am spending money on fishes and accessories
yup bought earing, hand band, ring

i have yet to buy

levis red 901 jeans
wallet
a proper watch
SHOES
shirts

my next pay is about 400

i still have about $250 on hold la
the $250 they have yet to pay me!!

taking own sweet time

anyway
been talking to pavitraaaa
my alarm clock
and some1 whom i tend to have a laugh with
during break after work before work

i mean ya,,i talk to her la

but pavitraaaaa u need to study da
remeber like the other time u threw your phone at one corner and were studying like one whole dayyyyy
do more of those!!!!

you have to girl

3As and i will treat swensens at batam okay?>????

lol

kanesh

in search of fame and wealth

pissed off

2008-03-03T14:13:00.002+08:00

ok.
i am major pissed off.
i woke up today and i got shit
i woke up at 12pm!!!!
wtf?!!!!!!!!!!
it was raining!!! wtf?!!!!!!!

saw my phone, got a msg from PaviG.
but i just had no bloody mood to reply.
nic called
shawn called
i just dint bother to reply!

stupid mom!
why do women have to talk so loud huh????
further more, its scientifically proven that their vocal cord produces the most irritating voice in the world!
thats why men dont bother answering back to mad screeching woman!

i have got major issue when people shout!
really a big major issue!
u dont bloody hell raise your bloody voice on kanesh!!

my sis had to extra class !
my mum told me she is goin to shop and would be back!
and next she calls and ask me to bring umbrella!!!

i was like wat the fuck!!!!!

its bloody rainin and she got a class why u ask me to come out!!!!
then she started yelling
being the soft-hearted person i am,
i went in the rain,
got drenched!
my sis never come out from school
she was still in!
my mum was like go see she is cming back home n bla bla bla
shouting away!!!!
arrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

fucccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!

i went inside
whoh!!!

the canteen was crowded with small pest!!!

all the primaru school kids!!!
swallowing their food
running around
fighting!

was i this irritating when i was young?
i just realised i was much more irritating with my attitude then,

then i skimmed through the pest and i caught my very own pest,my sis
lol
brought her back!
DRENCHED IN THE COLD WET RAIN!

i was like cursing my mum,
i mean like why the hell want to go to schoooollll

arghhh old people,

anw,much more relieved now!
since i bloged it all out!

next,
i realised i am ashamed of myself!
yes, my past ,mistakes
and the present state that i am

no one would ever believe if i tell them i was a rugger or even a footballer!
i gained so much bloody weight!
my thighs my belly!!!
i am disgusted by mysef!!!!

all the fats the oil
eeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
i got major issue with being fat,
i was bullied in my primary school
dubbed as babat(fats in malay) bola and many more

and i went around picking up fights which now i realise it was total stupidity!

yeap!
i am impatient
haha
bloody impatient to the max
i need help on that.
i just need one good result from anything that i wait for or be patient of
till to date for wateva things that i have waited for and had patience of gave me shit!
i gained nothing from all the wait and patience
and now i have this mindset of if i want something i want it now and i mean it!

lol.
but slowly realising somethings are worth the wait!
yea.
i have waited for the fish tank
i have got one.
i dint pay anything
i have waited for hmmmmmm
i think that the only thing la!

more about me.

i hate people looking down on themselves when they talk to me!
when u are talking to kanesh u better not look down on yourself!
u want to look down on others its fine, i might join you and we can look down on others
but u dont look down on yourself when u r with me or talking with me!

i am like so into myself
lol

i have to loose at least 5kg before poly resumes.
from size 36 i want to try and hit 34 and by the end of the year 30!

and i am sure nic would be fucking jeolous of me laaaaaaa....
lol
oh yea and nic stop following my style of communication!!!!!

kanesh
in search of fame and wealth!

hmph

2008-03-01T13:26:00.003+08:00

arggghhhhhhhhhh

no job is clicking welll!!!

why do people who have higher authority treat their people like so unfair?
basket.
they were once like us too right?
idiots
really bunch of idiots.
nvm
i shall quit this new job.
earning 5.5o/hr for standing one whole day, n also getting shit from them
thanks la
u can keep ur job
its not as if its my career or stuff

so i shall go for a job hunt come this monday.
hopefully st regis hotel take us in, only if camps were very frequent,
i love doing the camps!
its more tiring( correct spelling) than the hotel job
but i enjoy myself laaaaaaaaa.
arghhhhhh
but even if camps were frequent, i would end up missing the oorukaaari
hehe, yea, i cant explain why, but yeah like that laaaa
i should get a line, and roaming laa
so that can keep in touch with her when i go camps!

anw, yeap
i wish the airport job was much more reasonable
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

wei! my x-factor is just that i am nice person?
oh my kadavulaeeeeeee

lol
ok2
i talking too much bout that
kanesh control!!!!!

a level!!!
6 months left!!

i going to grow old!!

lol

anw yea
peace out ppl

kanesh
in search of fame n wealth

hhmmm

2008-02-28T23:46:00.002+08:00

helooo!!!

enna pechanae now?
got love in the air?

hmpphhh
# wink wink#

am i suggestive enough?
lol
what if i say yes?

what if i say no?

hhhmmmmmm
'
anw, yeap, i have officially stopped working in the airport!
sob sob
so i have been literally hanging with the people from airport~
geetha, rathi, vaish, reghu, kanagesh

drink bbq drink makan
talk cock

i realised that these people have literally same personal life

i mean , we all have nothing, poly have not started, parents barking at our throat!

lol
anw lets not get any emotional!
i been happy

paviteraaaaa u r remebered
kay?

lol

i got mention ur name k

kanesh
in search of fame and wealth

camp 2008

2008-02-25T12:24:00.002+08:00

The camP was FUN!!!. yea! my camp after 9 months or soooooo~~~

you know?! i missed the camp trainer life,yeap.
the kayaking the hiking the shouting the screaming the sunburn the hunger the songs the fun the craziness the sweat the stink the stickiness!!

lol
i enjoyed myself la. but i was a bit rusty for the first two days.
i mean i got partnered with hafiz n monkey(pj senior)
somehow rather i n hafiz dint click together well like how i clicked with gerard,cheston,jamal,fareez,jeremy,or even faiz!.
so it was awkward for me la,

but untill,the 2nd last day i was really not in my game la. i was more kind of the discipline type who gave in then the fun one who does not gives in.
well i was left to take charge for the game session.n yeap i n monkey(seow han) did put up great show.
the team was hyped up. they enjoyed themselves!.
well i dint really got the craziness in me laaaa..
the stupid people form the school was really being so difficult.
all they ever did was complain n complain n complain!
no sense of camping spirit in them!
damn!

the mountain climbing!
whoah i nearly died i tell u!
but dint show it to the campers la!!!.deh i trainer deh!
lol.well i just pushed myself.
and the knee cap which got hurt during the rugby training
started!!!
yea!
so arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
painfull!
the effect whenever i want to bend my knee.
it was too much laaaaaaaa
it was like 2km up and 2km down
u know its not like bukit timah where they got road and steps to go up
it was literally a jungle with some safe rops but we had to use our hands and legs and use the roots the tree trunk the creepers
omg i sweated so much sia!!!
lol
well yeap.
but thank god we trainers had the jokes then fun the relaxing we needed after 12am!!!
lol

yeap.
franklin rushing to go toilet holding his stomach n finding for tissue paper and we said shit happens!!

lol

fun laaaaaaaaaaaaaa

during the camp even during the fun and lethargic-ness
i missed her
i dont know why
i cant explain it but i missed her voice laaaaa

hmmmmmm

going camp

2008-02-19T18:28:00.002+08:00

whoaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh

the most shocking and surprising! camp!!!!
yeap i get to go camp for 5days 3 nights!

i mean like wow!!!

i needed a big break from everything , yea i did! i needed a BIG break from this tiring life
back to camp and here comes instructor kanesh!!!hhmmmm kane la!!!
lol

anyway besides getting excited about camp!
i am bit pissed with the jae! basket give me chemical process technology at sp!
what dumb course is that sia? i want chemical engineering laaaaaaaaaa...
please give it to me cannnnnn?

omg!

haha
anyway i wanna "girlcout" pavitra from my blog!
hmph.

i dont know why also
lol
i want to disturb people laaaaa

i feel so bad for not waking her up this morning
yeah i am like so sorrrrrrrrrrrrryyyy laaaaaaaaaaaa....

hehe
anyway lets see who going to miss who and who going to forget who okay?

entham vaanam neeyae entham uyirum neeeyae
na na na naaaaaaaa

lol so randomn la can?

kanesh
in search of fame and wealth

i hane moved on long time before u did

2008-02-18T19:48:00.002+08:00

yeap,
my previous blog was just on off thing la

i have moved on ages ago!
i was just confused laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..

now. no more, lets fly kite can???
i mean u see la
i never answer her calls
i never even bother

only sms, because i was at fault. i dont want to hurt anyone.
ya i am a good person riteeeeeee?
lol, yea so i guess i smsed to clear my name and make her feel better,

if i wanted her back i would have met her what? true? but i chose not to
when i was happily at home i told her i was working
i just simply had enuf !
yeap?

anw lets talk about airport? work getting better and better.
but sadly it has to end this 27th laaaaaaaaaaaa
i going to miss geetha(the snake woman), reghu( the hip), rethi( the big akka),kanagesh( the listener),vaishanve(the unexpected) and many more laaaaaaaaaa

i have yet to witness or experience the ghost of terminal 1 and 2, Fpier in t2 rest area at t1
hmph!!!!

hmmmmmm

pavig is the awesomest!!!!
ok happy now?
lol. she is a lazy gal now..lazy lazy lazy!

heheheheheh

kanesh
in search of fame and wealth

vday dday

2008-02-15T13:30:00.002+08:00

finally i feel like its new year for me.

as if it has started afresh

yeap 2007 is so over now! i realised,i have moved on!!!!!
feel great sia, i mean why waste time and energy on a girl with such a high ego and unstable emotions rite? i mean all i can say is f off la!

lol, evil is not in me though, its just part and parcel of life yea!, learn to live with it, i have learnt!

well yeap, special thanks to pavitra! my new great friend! wonderfull friend i have got.
hehe, i spelt your name correctly rite this time?.....

valentines day was boring as usual for me, meaning dint have a girl to spend my money on!
lol, instead shawn we went out, lol

two single MEN went out for seafood!, i tell you eat untill my stomache bloated !,
well we laughed off saying it does not make a difference for us !
hehe.
was smsing pavitrs all day long yesterday!, she also bored on vday la ! but had so much to do with her drama thingy, stressssssss she said!

percy, nice name, but its a dog and pavitra has the cutest dog of the breed
lol

after food we agreed on watching JUMPER, but heck the theatres were all closed la yest ! 9.30 all close!i think the cinema group pte ltd has came up with a plan to stop the hanky panky in its theatres on vday i gez, but haiya waste time n money travelling here n there sia!!!!!...

went to shawn home. flat, dead woke up at 11.
whoah the food K.O me . lol
then now here i am writing this blog away,

i mean i still do feel as if i am missing something, something which i cant explain in words,
i dont knw why, seeing the ppl holdings hands walking, girls holding flowers guys having a big smile on their faces, i dont knw,

as i and shawn were eating,
i told him if we got gf or wife when we eat bring the whole family and ambush the seafood

then we intro each other. this is Mrs kanesh , meet Mrs shawn.. ok? lets dig in!!! lol.
all the laughter and stuff,
the sense one big happy family,
haiya.

in a few months time i am going to enter the last phase of my teenage.19. left a year as a teenager.

haizzzzz
well special hoorah hoorah to the friends i adore
pavitra,shawn,nicholias,shan,edward,hafizuddin,roseanne,gaya3,leila,khai, hafiz

kanesh
still in search of fame and wealth
peaceeeeeeeeeeeeee

i gg to rebon!!!

2008-02-13T18:33:00.002+08:00

haha
work is just getting better and better
but too bad i going to stop working with effect from 27th of february
sob sob
going back to raffles hotel.
well i just decided not to take any $ from my parents anymore
i want to stand on my own leg

i dont want to be pampered by their money anymore, well some ppl just cant be like that i assume
always money money money..how would the parent feel sia.selfish pigs

anw

i went to work shaven!!!
yea. that pavithra la. ask me to shave
i go shave lo

when i went to work..
all asked me what happen to the beard?
i mean shaved it larh duh

so from my nick name of wolverine became ex wolverine x xmen
lol

so yeap worked with the looooong sideburn....
yesterday major slack sia
i sharmini and nicholias talk and ate and talk and talk all the way!!!!

too bad both of them not working tonight,haizzzz
dont know with who i am partnered with sia,

came back home at 8am today.
then someone sms me!
ask me whether my family got do black magic
i am like what the hell
hey talk about anything but not family man
now only all the broken pieces of my family getting together
and someone just come and ask me like that
say got fever and skin infection all over the bodayy

i mean like it should be because of something else rite?
black magic on u?
please la can?
u see.. u keep thinking too much of yourself now

well i ask that person to take care and said i still do care
basket reply me i need not care for the person
whoah that one big ego problem sia

what can i do?
well i cant

anw, i going to rebon my hairrrrrrrrrrrr la
haha......
yea...
ppl commente dmy hair too curly la and stuff
lets see how it looks when i rebon huh?

anw yeap...
earning fame and money is still my quest yaw
tc

kanesh waran

love hates

2008-01-31T22:35:00.000+08:00

i was hopping by to a blog and read this. this guy totally knows how to put it

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

- Neil Gaiman

postponed

2007-12-28T22:38:00.000+08:00

about the love thingy.
its delayed.yea..need to explore more.

anyway.
yea.i was just thinking
what really does our people nowadays thinking?

a FOAM PARTY for countdown?.
excuse me. we are asians.we are human being. we have moral values we have humility right?.

why the hell do we need a bloody foam party?.instead we can have a fun and exciting countdown in a much more better way.

our females. why the heck wont they get more shameless?.
mini skirts, cleavage revealing and this new thing called skinny? or leggings?
showing ur curves huh?hey even if ur wear that at least wear a long dress la.no need to show ur ass shape rite?

everything is just going upseide down!.
each every religion, their traditional clothes.
does anything have a revealing costume?.huh??..

okay even if lets say cultural development. why are we wearin almost body bearing cavemen like clothes?.
the temperature? the humidity? my foot!.

no wonder the divorce rates going up.
yea it might sound as if theres no point between the clothes and ways of the new age to divorce rates.
heck.what would be the main reason for a family break up?
loss of trust which will lead to violence
why would a couple loose trust?..think about it
the lifestyle they had when they were young.
its will come back in the future to haunt them.

is it worth it?.
i beg to define the meaning of fun! a female or male passed around among the opposite sex!.
i beg to define the meaning of enjoyment! brushing against each other drunk till u loose ur senses?.

oh god.the culture and humility of the human beings are in deep danger!SOS

its just my feelings expressed .thank you

coming out soon

2007-12-21T22:18:00.000+08:00

hey. ya. my life has totally changed to the best.
yeap.
became a veg
exercising twice a day (subject to time constraint)

so my next entry, is about love.
coming out this sunday!..
watch out!
smile!

myself

2007-11-27T19:20:00.001+08:00

k lets update...

yup i finally feel good..
gave a piece of my mind thrgh the previous entry.

now , i am working in cold storage!..haha..the fresh people place!...lol..
causeway point ..cashier..hehe

the anti government protest in malaysia..what the hell did the msia government said of it??...they called it a "riot"..it was peacefull protest till the police step in n fired tear gasses n water guns.. and of cause it will turn into a riot!..the msia media showed only the little damage that the hindhus did.. but what they dint show is the treament the hindus received by the hands of the police!..the people were dragged n kicked in the stomach..female hindhus were arrested.

why the hell would the indians go on to riot if they were not provoked!..temples were demolished!..they were not given their equal rights!.hell thats why we moved to singapore!!..i am just so frustrated.

saw the news from suntv.that news showed how even the senior indiands were treated..why do u hurt people if they gathered to ask for their rights?..can someone help the hindus in malaysia!..the government should look into the matter..it must be a win win solution!..n what the hell did The PAS leader said?..we wont bow down to their protest?..hello sir, we are only asking for our rights n nothing else.thats all.we dont want anything else.just our rights!!!!!...

with all due respect to everyone involved.
malaysia boleh!

hell yea

2007-11-27T19:20:00.000+08:00

okay okay...
i must prepare my self for poly..

before i move on..as a ritual..
i must tell the real fact about my past..my college..

to tell u the truth. MY rugby teacher is bloody racist!..
yea thats right..read it again..racist!..

so many times i kept quiet ..
laughed along with it..sometimes pushed to the very limit
but i kept tellin myself its for my mental prep..

but i realised he was too much..
yes, TOO MUCH...
n yet he expect more non chinese to join rugby..
stop the silly comments n more will join...

stupid teammate..NOT ALL..THAT freak who likes to take his anger out on his own teammate..should i name him?..hell yea!..LAW..
u better keep ur bloody racist comments to yourself..dont u dare think other indians will tolerate as much as i can!....

n yea to leave a note behind..i just pray hard that i will be able to play against the team that encouraged me.. goodos to my captain my vice captain,is that how i spell his name?>, govind, derrick,n yes of coz the ever good natured hans....

these are the guys who will make u join the team..n there some who simply make u feel low...

okay?....

singapore poly vs pioneer jc...
wohooo...i will play for sp next year!...

hell yeah!!!!!....

i will show whos the weakest link n make sure i prove a thing or two for not gettin the support i needed .
there were only three...me,suraj,dongkai..we were in the last room..while those in lt3 <>...3 of us neva got that!.......

left a bitter taste in the mouth....

promos result

2007-11-10T16:38:00.000+08:00

okay as expected i did not make it to j2.
okay lets see what i m left with after this year.
myself. once again.
i dont see anyone by myside or along with me.
EVERYONE got their own life now.
was a fool to believe that i can play all the way.
well it did cost me.

pioneer rugby is where i wanted to be.
but for some reason always being left out.
never mind they have a beeter squad without me.
goodos to them for their upcoming competition.

so okay lets see my options.
i can either appeal to be reatained finish my a level get some degree and become police officer.
or, join polytech do my chem eng course.
either way, i will end up getting my degree at the age of 28.
so yeap i screwed my own life.

hmph lets scrap whats left for me.
teachers have got bad impression of me.
Ns is just around the corner.

i wanted to talk to that someone la.but i dont want to be a burden for her as she her ownself has some major decision to make.
when that person told me possible of going switzerland.
my heart just ""kasshing!!"".
n i just said okay.

i just dont want to be sellfish . let the fate take its course.i can do something bout my life now.but bout whether ending up with that person.fate will take its course.

i am not scrutinising any1 for their decision or reaction towards me.its just as expected n i dint really thought miracle would happen.

till then................
lost a battle..............

police in spore

2007-10-19T15:07:00.000+08:00

Hello. The previous post was about the possibilty of re merger of singapore and malaysia.
In this blog. I am going to give my VIEW of the difference between the livehood of singapore police and other countries.

In Singapore , one of the most safest country to live, we have low crime rates. We do not have Big bandits or A big Gang that have the power to change the government or even run away from it. Even though we have gangs in singapore, they are nothing compared to those in foreign countries, we need not go so far, take a look at our neighbor,Malaysia. Thay have huge network of gang all over the country. Not forgetting indonesia and not even thailand.We, singapore, are surrounded by countries where "gangsterism" may well be controlling some part of the state. In those countries, many policemen are bribed, murdered, kidnapped during their on and off duty period.The state of policemen in those countries are very bad.Its either u beat them or join them.Thats how oppressing the sitiution the life of a policeman is in those countries.

Wherelse in singapore, Our policeman are comparatively having a fairly much better life than those in our neighboring countries.We do not have rebels carrying a gun or bomb. we do not have a bandit who would cause harm for both the policeman and his family.Our policemen, are doing patrol watch and if they have any criminal cases to handle, they would solve the case very quickly.They do not have a proper challenge as a policemen.

Our government could sign a bond with other neighboring countries, by providing them our top notch police department's service in return of something that would be beneficial for our nation.As our Ns men travel to other countries to face some life like challenge.Our police department should be tested time and time to ensure that we only have the strongest force in southeast asia.

To start off our government could sign a bond with our closest neighbour,malaysia. In that bond we provide them our top notch policemen to help them solve their high crime rate and in return they sell us their water at much lower rate. it is a win-win sitiution for both the countries..what do u think???..

thank you...kanesh